My head hurts like bloody hell, not because I'm thinking too much or whatever.
It's because I was hit right on the head, very hard.
Zee Yin probably was too excited on her story and she swings her arm backwards wheeeee~~ and BANG!
It hit right on my head with that piece of metal, rheostat to be exact, and it felt like my nerves (or whatever you call it, IDK, I dont study Biology. xp) was going to burst out. =.="'
She's just too happy. I dont blame her. =)
I'm constantly getting headache and dizziness since then.
Nothing feels right, not even when I stand or sit or lying down.
Weirdest part is, it's not swollen, no bruise, yet.
It's still reddish, have been more than 12 hours, though.
It hurts by just moving my eyebrow or opening my mouth.
And I kept forgetting, not to make my arm as a stand and put it at my forehead while sitting at the desk. Gaah!!
Random, I know, random post, while getting ideas for my moral work. I'm so blank, I'm giving all the same examples already. Eeeek!
Graduating isn't fun. There's so much to think and do before and after leaving high school. It sucks.
When I was in lower secondary, how I wish I would grow up as soon as possible.
Now I'm in higher secondary, how I wish time could stop, or at least, things are way easier.
Determination is so freaking important that I've determined on what I wanted, on every goal I set for myself every year since the second half of form 1.
But now, all I felt is letting it all go. I cant stand the pressure anymore.
I cant stand the deal I had. Coward perhaps? I cant stand seeing myself being a failure.
But after holding on for almost four years, letting it go now may cause everything go to waste.
I sometimes do think I might be a psycho someday. ><
There were nights I cried myself to sleep. There were days I struggled alone.
Kept smiling wherever I go.
Dislike the misconceptions people had on me.
Think, I'm not rich, cuz I dont work. I dont have my own income.
I'm not smart. I'm just too lucky whenever it comes to governmental examinations.
Most of all, I dont have a perfect path waiting for me right after high school.
In fact, I dont know what should I do.
So stop implying those very random concepts on me, saying 'aiya, no worries, you're future are all set.' Pfft!
I couldnt stop but think, what am I going to do after high school? It's only 9 months away, in fact less than 9 months, I must get it decided.
Now, I wonder how did the others work theirs out? Were they so indecisive?
I dont know if I should continue on what I wanted.
Most of all, I'm so gonna miss all my friends.
After all, it took me four to five years to make new friends.
Taking another four years after high school, seriously, sucks. By then, I've already finish college? Then it's time to work, starting it all again. Gaah!
Couldnt go to sleep every night, there must be reason, right?
Leeteuk falls while playing with his chair during Sukira, Kiss The Radio. :O
Dang cute lah him. Doink doink. =D
And this is extremely hilarious. Hhahahahha. I laughed so hard too.
Watch it watch it. Super funny and cute when he pat his stomach. xp
Eunhyuk and Leeteuk kissing o.o Hahaha
Cow! =D
Just realized Eunhyuk is always so nice. ;D
He helped Leeteuk a lot a lot.
He massages Leeteuk when he's exhausted.
He helped Leeteuk whenever he could, just like this,
aaawwww.. T.T
and this, I suppose Leeteuk's having sore throat or something, but Eunhyuk helped and they're so tacit. ;D
Anyhoo, Siwon speaks really good English, and Chinese too.
I watched so many videosssss and in those chinese programs, when he doesnt know to speak much chinese, he's good at hearing. He gets what the others meant most of the time.
Awesome!
Watch this watch this. Hee.
I'm watching 快乐大本营 just because of Siwon and Hangeng is in it.
The two episodes that only have both of them in it.
Planned so much. Actually shed tears during some part while watching it. Sobs.
OHH YEAAAH! Oh! My Lady is up on PPS already. Yipee!
I'm gonna watch is as soon as I've time to let it load and jam the wifi, prepare to get scolded by bro. xD
Official poster of Oh! My Lady. Sweet!
And he's so fond of children no matter where he goes,
every videos I watched, whenever there's kids appearing in front of him,
he pat them, high five, carry, hold their hands, hug them and so much more. ;D
He looks so perfect that way. Like he's a good father. ;p
Leeteuk is so dang, hmm, I still cant find the word for what I think of him. But definitely positive. =D Donghae's so flirty. xp Ryeowook's so cute. xD Kyuhyun's like, gentleman, flirty, cute. Combination of all? Hee. Siwon's so dang gentleman, feels like royalty. But I think he's flirty too. xp
Oh yeah, some random stuffs on the fans from China of SuJu. They're so dang rude. During Super Junior Super Show 2 in Shanghai on 6th of March, they chanted on Hangeng's name when it was Henry's and Zhoumi's parts, like really shouting and so rude, covered the singers' voice, but went quiet when it was the others singing.
It's like, they're trying to chase them both down the stage. T.T
They want Hangeng back, we all want Hangeng back obviously, but it wasnt Henry and Zhoumi's fault what. T.T
In this video below, you can see what I meant clearly and Ryeowook was very unhappy with it, you can just see it so clearly from his expression.
Yeah? And the other members in the group wasnt happy as well. See this, Siwon was so brave to tell the fans to be quiet, like, stop shouting Hangeng's name, like not cheering for him but uses his name to make Henry and Zhoumi feel bad and sad. I saw Henry's post and he was so sad. T.T But watch this watch this! Siwon dang gentleman, and protective of his brothers. Awww..!
But the other two behind him was like kinda afraid and tried to hold Siwon back, and he didnt get the mic in the end, I think?
Ahh, good. Thumbnail's pic is on what I'm talking about. =D
The most awesome part is, Super Junior protect their brothers, still smiled to the fans, wave them goodbye, said lovely stuffs and, they thanked them so much, bow 90 degrees for so long and sincerely, even though they didnt like what the fans did.
See, they're always super awesome. ;D
If you get to see all the pics taken in a lot of different random webs, you can actually see that Henry was weak and didnt have the courage to stand up to stage again.
But Siwon hold him up, and they all hugged each other.
That's what I like about SuJu, they're family, they hugged each other often, even while just sitting on the floor, they hold hands while going places, they're so tacit if you notice, they do the same stuffs without needing to tell each other, and, they even kissed each other! xp
Super Junior Super Junior. 13 ≤ SJ ≤ 15, I love them, never smaller than 13. =)
The weirdest thing was I wasnt exactly too stress during all the papers but until the last paper today, additional mathematics.
I'm not very good in it this year, suddenly classmates kept saying my add maths very good, O_O made me stressed out. =.=
Anyhoo, got two results today.
Wanna go and bang the wall, or like my teacher said, go kiss the wall. =.= Heh.
Since exams are over, temporary, I'd like to sleeeeeeep and watch more Super Junior videos. xD
Super Junior "accompanied" me during studies cuz I was so sleepy and didnt wanna study.
So, I kept watching those videos to keep myself awake.
The worst night was Tuesday night where I studied til midnight half past 3 o'clock. =.="'
Had less than three hours of sleep and went exam. >.<
I studied all fifty freaking long, hard chinese ming ju and I had to keep searching dictionary on how to pronounce it, memorize how to write and the worst part is out of 50, it came out like 3 or 4 ONLY. T.T
Then I was like, WTH IS ALL THIS?! during physics.
Late night sleep again last night, and I felt really sick this morning.
Felt like vomiting during history paper, slip in and out of sleep during exam unknowingly, sweated a lot, felt cold and hot, and so I used like twenty minutes to randomly circle all the answers, left most of the subjective part blank and straight go to sleep. =_=
I dislike exams. I dislike the part that I've to get my results even more. =x
School reopens tomorrow = back to school = examinations = stare at the papers = scribble random stufssss = wait to flunk? = get scoldings = exhausted = study harder.
LOL! I cannot believe time have passed so fast.
Anyhoo, one big question, if The Face Shop's products better or Skin Food's?
Or any other suggestions?
And, oh! I need hair care now, I cant bear it anymore.
Today I was asked by a cashier in Naf Naf whether did I do straightening to my hair. Like WTH?!
I never did anything to my hair except wash, dry, and cut. =.=
Anyway, I need hair care, any recommendations?
Okay, I'm going to open the Biology textbook now, like seriously? I know, it's weird that I'm actually gonna study Biology. But I'm sure I would sleep on it tonight. LOL.
But WTH, I dont get to go and watch them or even catch a glimpse of them. T.T
It's not like they're in Korea and I'm asking for a flight to there. They are in the country! =(
I kept telling myself, ohhh dreeeeaam on!
All I can do is stare at their lovely dreamy faces on the poster I've got couples of days back when I went to Daorae Korean BBQ, and stick my face back to all the dang boring books and study for exams.
It's not like I really care about the exam but I cant get too bad result, since it's the first term only. *Trying to get myself distracted away from thinking about SuJu*
But I found out I've missed so much when I was out of class, so I find it even harder to study cuz it's like What is this? or Oh, what was it already? Aiish I forgot.
I dont even know a lot of stuffs.
And the worst part is I only started to study yesterday but no, it wasnt study at all, I was eating more cheese cakes and Japanese snacks, watching more TV while I tried to figure out those mathematics and Additional mathematics questions. =.="'
Obviously, I failed to concentrate and solve all the questions. And the worst part is I havent memorize anything yet like, Chemistry, History, Moral? Gasp! I just remember I still have Physic! =.= Needless to say, I havent seen Bio for weeks. xD
So yes, I'm now trying to connect to that freaking live SuJu concert radio thingy but FAILED TnT
No needa study already. As friends said, go learn Korean and go Korea marry a Korean, best is celebrity. Then live in a dream world. LOL!
*slaps* Come back to reality. I am now going to open the history textbook and, sleep on it. xDD
Ahh, I've been invited to join a lot of random groups in Facebook.
Especially those anti-groups. I mean not like anti plastic bags, or anti smokers, or anything so, but anti-SOMEONE'S NAME.
I've seen a few, like people from Chung Hwa, or Union, or even CLHS or Heng Ee, someone for some reasons created groups for them and invited people to join.
They spoil their pictures, boo them down, make them freak out, even parents have went to school regarding this matter, I heard?
I mean come on, even if that person is so freaking bad, like even real bad, do you have to create a group and anti him/her?
I just dont get it, think, what if one day, you accidently did something, like you turn around from the hawker in canteen and you accidently spill your drink on someone, be it his shoes or his white nicely ironed shirt?
Then he go all around talking about you badly, even you did apologize and offered him to clean his clothes, but then he still decided to create a group up, and copy all your vain pictures down and edit it, putting a red big X on it, or say ANTI-YOURNAME, or he start spreading rumours about you, calling you slut, or if you're so unlucky, you dont have that perfect look, so you got called as FUGLY.
OMG! How would you feel by then?
So yes, if any of you happen to read this, and you're already in any of those bad anti groups I meant, maybe, maybe you would feel embarrass, or maybe you think what you do are right, it's up to you, but I would suggest, you know, quietly log onto your Facebook, pop by that group and click remove as fan or leave group.
No one's gonna be harsh on you if you leave, I suppose?
So yes, be nice to people even if they're so freaking idiotic. Just, maybe you dislike her, maybe you think you're cleverer than her but you dont have to anti her if she didnt do anything to you, even if she did, just forgive her?
I am not accusing anyone or what or so, I just think those people have their rights.
There's no point creating all those groups, spreading it all to the whole world, telling people his of her real Facebook account and get people to send him all those freaking messages.
And make he or she had to remove their Facebook account.
Just think, what if this happen to you?
It's not like I am being anti-ed or what. Dont get me wrong. =)
Just, stop inviting me to those kinda groups anymore, I would just click ignore.
Yes, IGNORE. I dont like seeing it, needless to say be in it? Pfft.
We had performance for the school's 90th anniversary opening ceremony on Saturday morning.
We waited for quite long? And luckily I had my camera with me, so we killed boredom by taking loadsa photos.
After the ceremony, percussionists came to my house we had loadsa fun and more craziness. xD
We started to make up since 3.45pm and we failed to finish by 5pm. >.<
My mum had to come back and rescue us. Hee.
Then, it was the night's concert. Video will be uploaded a.s.a.p.
Dang the Facebook uploader and Youtube. It both went error. TnT
Anyone knows where else to upload it?
So, yeah we had loadsa loadsa fun in the band room, a lot of craziness.
Ahh, I'm just too lazy to type it all out here.
Memories are all kept in my brain, so yeah, as long as we remember it, that's will be just fine. ; )
On the second day, we met up in school earlier just to get all the make up done.
Due to raining, and nothing much to do, and had too much time before our turn to go on stage, we all became moldy. I mean seriously, everyone was like so quiet. =.="'
Then we started doing random stuffs to avoid growing mushrooms and fungus. LOL!
The performance was great, was so dang happy. ;D
But the stuffs after that wasnt great at all. I dislike it, in fact, I hate it.
Like, WTH?! Think, peeps! THINK! Make your brain functional, would you?
So yeah, like Gina said, I was being strong on the outside?
No matter what, I tried to see another ray of hope, therefore I didnt think it would be the freaking last.
I was trying to see the next chance, not the last chance, get it?
So, anyhow, we tried to kill all the gloomy part by finding fun among keeping instruments, and EAT! LOL!
Then, more pictures, more more pictures. =)
For pictures, view it all up on my Facebook. I've uploaded it all.
Thanks to whomever, especially Gaik Sean for tagging everyone.
I'll get the video up a.s.a.p. I find out what is wrong with it, promise.
Thank you for the memories, dear percussionists.
<3 >
There will definitely be another chance.
See another ray of hope, see the next chance.
And do remember what I told you all, yeah?
♥♥♥
There're so much to say, so much to share.
And, one thing I like is,
you guys never let me down during critical moments.
Haha, Nan Rou and Jing Ning claimed that I was influenced, in fact, I was infected with their virus.
Their random virus, which they talk about really random stuffs, doing really random stuffs, and laughing non stop, I mean crazily at random stuffs.
Oh gosh, see, I'm seriously going crazy.
Something really really funny happened, so I was laughing so much that Lady Nan-Nan was trying to say that I was so random and weird but she couldnt say it and laughed at me so much that the students in the classes stared at us. xD
Well, I guess it's the same old problem again.
It's normal for Laurine and I, but others would stare at us like WTH is wrong with us. Hahaha.
However, Laurine isnt in the same class as I am this year, no one to laugh this crazily with me without thinking I am weird. =(
But who knows, that this kiddos, somehow went crazy yesterday and they made me laugh non stop and they even said I spoiled my reputation. *Ahem*
Yeah, I guess it's not that normal to see me doing such stuffs but, hey, who cares? I needa release stress, and laughing is always a good way to do so. ;D
Okay, I admit it, it's a lil way too much.
But that's me! Laugh non stop til the day ends when I'm awfully mentally and physically exhausted then I'd go to sleep as much as I can, then the next day, needa work on stuffs again? Laugh again! LOL! =X
Cant exactly blame me, we are all way too tired and stressed out since weeks ago with all the class item stuffs, food fair, concert, ceremony, studies etc etc.
I havent actually get to even pause, not stop, yeah, pause a while before going to the next stuff.
Though hols are coming, there's no rest either cuz exams are coming. TnT
Oh well, just smile and laugh on, live a happy life? Hahaha.
Oh yeah, watch these watch these!
Freaking funny. The annoying orange is seriously annoying which I felt like hitting it or squashing it, or squueze it into juice, but it's soooooo funny at the same time.
I know I sound insane, but I actually watched quite a couple of it and I couldnt stop laughing.
Then, Joella told me about this Elmo prank calls and so I searched it up and it's soooooooo cute, adorable and funny! Haha.
I love Elmo, and whenever I see the Elmo by my pillow, I cant stop but thinking of these prank calls.
Watch it, I bet you'd laugh too. Chill peeps. ; )
BTW, thanks to Yannee for the orangey mechanical pencil! ;D
It's a pretty cool mechanical pencil, I've never seen one that could pop up like that.
And and, thanks to Nan Rou, my Lady Nan-Nan for the freaking cute, lovely teddy bear!
Awwwww, I cant bear the cuteness of it. I promise I'll take good care of it. Hahahahahaa.
I've been saying you as chhiiiiiuuu nowadays. It's pretty weird I know.
And it somehow lead me to saying aiiimiisshhchhiiuu.
Don't know much about your life.
Don't know much about your world, but,
Don't want to be alone tonight,
On this planet they call earth.
Sometimes you just doesn't seem to bother even a single bit.
Sometimes you showed so much concern.
I doubted, at times. But that's the way you are.
How I wish I could tell you more, how I wish you would tell me more.
How I wish things aren't like this, how I wish the story started way earlier.
How I wish the story are way way different.
But, without the connectors that has been annoying me, the story couldnt even started.
And and, you know how much I felt like banging my head, when you didnt get the hint I was trying to tell you. >.<"'
Ahh, see, it always has the wrong timing problem. It never worked out. No matter who started.
*laughs* This is our world? Not everything goes the exact ways we want it to be. But, I'm not gonna let it stays at 'wish' forever. ; )
Ahh, right, is anyone going to the food fair that will be held by our school on this Sunday morning?
Cant wait for this Saturday and Sunday's concert performance. Though I bet I'd be freaking exhausted. And, I think my family wont be using the 4 tickets I have for the Saturday night concert. Anyone wants it?
I think I can give it to you all, once I confirm. Just text me and let me know. =)
Anyone wanna go to the food fair together on Sunday?
And, the "kiddos" are coming to my house this Saturday! Yipee! CANT WAIT for more craziness! ;D
I didnt attend school for the first time of the year. Dang that serious headache.
Had painkiller and all I did was sleep and more TV. LOL!
Couldnt keep my attendance record full, again. >.<
Exams are coming, aissh, I'd be so dead. How to get full As when I dont even know so many stuffs and havent been to many lessons for like, weeks? :S
Loadsa bad stuffs happened for the past two days, I mean, real bad.
Aiish, whatever that had happened has happened.
"Tomorrow will be a better day", and it wasn't, at all. Still, tomorrow will be a better day.
We've to just hope for the best, be caution and so.
Anyway, audition wasnt too bad. At least Pn Chan didnt eliminate us. =)
And, on Thursday, all the students that were appointed to do so had food fair, jumbo sale, whatever you named it, to help the school on the fund raising project, in conjunction with the school's 90th anniversary and the alumni's 70th anniversary.
While doing good deeds, we all had so much fun! ;D
We discussed a couple of times and Michele who was in-charged gave everyone a job.
As for me, I feel a lil guilty. I only contributed ideas at first, being a photographer, helped around here and there and grabbed friends to come and support us.
At least everyone that I've grabbed in bought something, or play the game. Hee.
And guess what, our steamboat-style-lok-lok helped us to earn a lot of profit. Yipee yipee!
We were thrilled and we cheered when the school announced our class made a contribution of RM1000. ;D
Though we were hungry and we didnt have food for ourselves, and poor us, we had to eat kangkung vegs with the leftover Tom Yam soup, century eggs and cucumbers from Rojak, we still had loadsa loadsa fun! ;D
Mandy is still as funny as always. Giving us so much memories.
Ahdu captured loadsa loadsa funny pictures.
Thanks dear ones. ;D
For pics, view it all in my Facebook, I'm too lazy and sick to upload anymore. >.<
Hey yo, I know I havent been updating for long. I am freaking busy.
Everyday is like, prepare for concert, study, go for rehearsal, practice for class item, tuition, and sleeeeeep!
Ahh, you cant imagine how tired we are that we just straight go to sleep even right after we got home after 5pm, before bathing. Or we're too exhausted to even bath. =.="'
I even slept before I started my homework, or, I was too tired to pay attention during lessons.
My mum would kill me if she knows all this. ;p
I am trying to release some stress here, will it help? Hmm, LOL!
My legs' muscles are so pain that I hate going up the stairs. >.<
And my knees have dang big, ugly bruises. So scary lo! Everyone that saw it went O_O
My back ache like hell. =.="'
Anyhoo, we have audition tomorrow! Gaah. So dang nervous.
Hope that Pn Chan dont stare at us and eliminate us. ; )
So, goodie luck to us, S5F dancers tomorrow!
Must make all the back ache, muscles pain and big fat ugly bruises worth it. ;D
Short the name, Am`s.
Plays the piano and percussion.
Loves instrumental, jazz and classical.
Likes to read. Fond of hugs.
Loves family and friends.
Call me being eccentric, but I've quite an aversion to liquor and abhor smoking.
Peace ; )
*Psst! I always either forgot or lazy to tag labels on every entry. So do excuse me if you cant stuffs under some labels.* =)
` More Lomo Cameras
` Learn another language; Korean?
` Get income :/
` New piano seriously.
` Vacations; Visit an Europe country
` A long break from everything
