My flight's in the evening later on, and sadly, my friends couldnt make it.
It's alright, I guess? At least I wont cry, and I'll just leave like as usual, as if going for hols. :)
I couldnt believe time flies so fast. When I was saying there's still a month, it felt like last week only, but see how fast time has passed that I'm leaving in a few hours time.
It's pretty tough packing cuz I feel like bringing everything over, even my pillows and plush toys but of course I cant.
My luggages are so full that we're so afraid that they'll be overweight. My mum and I kept weighing our luggage. LOL
And girls are always girls. I thought I wouldnt bring many stuffs over, but when I started to pack and look through my room, I'd realize I havent pack this, I havent pack that, there's still this and that... xD
But it's all the needy stuffs, just the autumn winter clothing that are taking up much space and those hard objects too. So, instead of two luggage only, after packing up my last minute stuffs like last few clothes and toiletries pouch, pencil case, slippers and a few books, am using half of one of my bro's luggage. xD
No choice, everyone said girls are never ending when it comes to packing. And I wasnt that kinda girl all this while, except this 'trip', cuz I wanna bring over so many stuffs. LOL
And although we're not very very very close, most of my relatives have been giving us extra red packets and telling us to study hard. And they somehow found out my mobile number when we didnt give them.
So I've been receiving a few messages for the pass few days, it's all the wishes and blessings.
I was pretty surprised that although we're not very very close but still close, they did remember when we're leaving and doing things that I didnt thought they would. So, much appreciated, thank you for all the wishes and everything! <3
By the way, I'll be bringing my Malaysian number over to Melbourne first til my parents come back to Penang. So, dont text to my number after 6pm today til the 20th. After that, if you needa contact my family or stuffs, or you couldnt get to me, just text to my Malaysian number, and my family will reply you.
Anyhow, there's always this internet thing, so just contact me through Facebook or Skype. I'd check Facebook pretty frequently, pm me or post on my wall, I'll get back to you. Or leave me your Skype name, I'll add you up and you can contact me there too. Or if you've a smartphone, let me know if you use Pingchat! and Viber and I'll add you up too. :D Maybe Whatsapp too, later on.
It's not a big deal after all, this internet thingy is so so so convenient. :)
So, goodbye Penang, hello Melbourne!
Hello new life, new people and I wont forget all of you here in Penang. <3
I'm pretty happy and excited but at the same time, I think I'll miss home a lot and my parents and my sisters! ><
I've been searching around places to eat Malaysian food or at least buy small comfort food, places where Malaysians most gather around, and places to buy the usual stuffs I use.
But yeah, I guess I'll get used after some time and I'd be trying different things.
I did some googling and I found a lot of photos and videos, I read up what the previous students have to say.
So... It's a pretty very awesome place to study. See for yourself.
This one below, gives me a feeling that it's kinda like Hogwarts. LOL!
It's more like a, no not a, it has a lot a lot of buildings so they all looks like shopping malls, art museum, some kinda royal castle etc etc!
Well, it's in the city so down the streets or few streets away has a lot of shops, cafes, restaurants and malls.
Of course I searched up what are the shops there and so, pretty awesome, so far. :D
Too bad they dont have shops like Forever 21, Zara there but they do have Cotton On (of course) so it's pretty alright and since young I know they have a lot of vintage shops there and in my memory, Melbourne has a lot of places to shop, so no worries, I dont think I'ld get bored of the life there.
Furthermore, it's a whole new life there and it's much bigger than Penang so, definitely many places to explore! :)
And I thought Melbourne is like Little Asia, y'know, like Little India in Penang but I find that Melbourne is like a little whole world! Cuz it's like people from practically all over the world is studying, working and living in Melb.
So, I hope to meet up more people of different races and hopefully pick up a new language and getta know more about the world and culture. :)
Hopefully, I could make Korean friends! x)
I think I've a lot, too much to say but I'm having a flu now, and it's pretty annoying typing with this half blocked nose so, toodles for now.
Shall continue my googling, brush up English, read up the laws in Melbourne, prepare my stuffs and watch Korean shows and catching up Secret Garden (I didnt know it'd be such a big hit, so I didnt follow it like how I watched the other dramas, which is watch it as soon as they've it with subs. So I'm watching it now to understand why people like it so much.)
Anyway, watch these too!
P.S I was typing pretty quickly so there may be a few typos and wrong punctuation and stuffs, so just ignore it, pretty lazy to check again. Toodles!
Last day of October, I am seriously seriously gonna ditch my laptop.
I'm gonna pass it to my mum right after I finish this entry.
I'm not kidding. But I still have my mobile phone, which is so convenient to online. -.-
So, I wanted to off my mobile phone, but naah, I couldnt do that.
Dad's gonna make a big fuss if he happens to couldn't contact me.
But, I'm gonna be really determined this time.
Finding back the determination that I've had for the past four years.
Striving hard, just to be able to stay in marching band.
I lost it, right on the year that I've SPM, that's really crappy. ;(
And finding it back was really tough all this while, struggling here and there.
In the beginning of the year, parents kinda mean something like get 10As to persuade parents to let me realize my dreams.
But when I know dad has "secretly" planned everything ahead for me, I kinda lost hope.
But it's quite alright now, I'm used to him with his planssss.
All I'm gonna do now is to study as much as I could.
Like mum always said, as long as I put in effort, as long as I tried my very best.
People are so gonna think that I'm stupid or lazy or whatever if I don't get many As, but that never really bug me.
All that matters is mum believes in me. =)
I knocked my head real hard this morning, I'm having migraine now.
Hope it's nothing serious. :/
And peeps out there, stop texting me nonsense or sending random messages on Facebook.
No, I'm not showing off anything here.
Guys, I've no interest in all this crappy junk like asking me questions as if I've committed crimes, insisting me to answer questions that I don't have and don't need to answer!
I kinda took an oath couple of years back and especially it's so near to SPM, Imma just let it slide.
And I always tried to help people around me and don't mind lending my ears, my shoulders but now that I myself couldn't find a pair of ears for myself, who's gonna help me when I feel like collapsing, when I'm really falling apart?
So, good bye everyone.
I'm gonna drop by once in a while during studies break, but no post entries til after SPM.
I mean it, and make sure you shoo me away if you see me on the net a lot. :D
Toodles! =)
What if all these are just some kinda joke y'guys trying to pull on me?
Anyhoo, yesterday was my very last lesson in Anthony's tuition.
It's quite sad to know that all this has come to an end though I was only there for like 2 years plus.
I used to have Malay tuition only during Form 1 and 2, then mum got me two home tutors.
They practically didnt teach me much, they were just making sure I do exercises and revision,
and I started to dislike tuition and whenever I thought of tuition, the next word that would come in mind is crappy-boring.
So, I decided to have a change and joined Anthony's tuition right before PMR.
Like everyone else, having our first time there would be pretty nervous, some were even afraid.
But guess what? I never thought tuition would be this fun. =)
Learning and having fun, both at the same time, isn't that the best combination?
Sir has been an awesome teacher, like seriously.
Though he likes to joke around, fool a lil' here and there with the students, I don't call this unprofessional.
It's just, every teacher has his own way to communicate, to understand more about his students.
And there are times that people would spread rumors.
Y'know? It's like when people say something bad about your siblings or friends but you'd choose to not trust them and still thinks your family and friends didnt do it?
Yeah, just like that, we students chose to believe that sir isn't that kinda person like those rumors said. =)
So those people out there who are trying to spread rumors and cut down the number of students, you practically failed. x)
I've much to tell, but I couldn't find the words.
I'm just glad that tuition has been real nice for the last few years of my high school life and sir has created more laughters and awesome memories for us. ;D
We had lucky draws on Friday and bunch of crazy friends I have! ♥
Mandy, Kelly, Geok Cheng and Rou Ning were way nervous than I was and they're such tacit friends.
What a bombsheel!
They kinda screamed together when Mandy insisted the paper has my name on it, when I strongly disagree.
So yeah, it wasn't me, and Kelly nagged on Mandy for giving me false hopes, like a mother. LOL
It's alright, mates, no worries. As long as we had fun, ain't? =)
And they had singing-drama-episodes when this song was playing.
Kelly and Mandy would made it through to success if they choose being a comedian as their career. :D
They even imitate cats and meow-ed loudly a lot a lot of times. Hope no one else heard it, or they'd think we're crazy. x)
So, thank you sir for everything. All the teachings, all the laughters, all the awesome memories.
And thank you mates too, for making tuition even more fun with all the random stuffs and jokes, even all the silly embarrassing moments. ♥♥
It's our graduation ceremony tomorrow!
OMG after studying in Peng Hwa for 14 years, finally I'm graduating from Peng Hwa ENTIRELY!
I've gone through PCK (No, it's not Phua Chu Kang, it's Penang Chinese Kindergarten LOL) graduation, PCGPS graduation and none of it feels as good as graduating from PCGHS.
PCGHS is known for its famous 5cm length hair, sideburns not longer than the hair behind, no hair pins are allowed except the typical traditional one, no pulling fringe upwards and pin it up, we've to queue up like kindergarten til the morning session finish school when we're in afternoon session, no walking into staffs room except monitors and AJKs, not allowed to bring medicine unless permission granted, no pictures of celebrities are allowed, etc etc etc
But I've broke it all, most of us have broke it all, or I've did stuffs that are even worst. Heh.
I can't imagine what would it be like for me to sit in the seats of the graduants for real this time.
Every year, it was us, band members practicing hard, trying to dedicate to our seniors the best performance as much as possible.
There'll be one song specially dedicating to the seniors, after the VIPs and parents have left the hall.
We'd practice real hard even though we know we'd still get cheers from the form five and upper six students cuz usually they wouldn't know even if we've played wrongly unless it's too obvious or it's our own members.
Now, it's my turn to sit with the graduands and watch the band perform.
Look at how time has flew.
I probably would cry tomorrow, or maybe not. I'm telling myself not to. x)
But one thing for sure is, all the moments we had would definitely play all again in my mind.
Especially when they play Warabe Uta Fantasy, the song that I've practiced the most this year, the song that we performed on Dewan Sri Pinang together for the first time.
The song that we played during the event that people have acknowledged ........ ;x =)
You probably don't understand what I'm talking already, cuz I myself don't too. LOL
Anyhoo, goodie luck to us! We've to rock the stage tomorrow night.
Dance it all right for the very last time after all the nerve wrecking auditions. =)
I really do hope the make ups not gonna smudge if we happen to cry, I'm still betting with Mandy that I'm not gonna cry x)
I was at the seminar in CLHS for two days and I didn't learn the 谢师宴主题曲&插曲 -.-
Everyone's gonna sing it tomorrow and I don't even know how to =(
All I know is the funeral-like graduation song that I've heard for the past four years.
So, I'm just gonna do whatever I could to have more awesome memories. =)
The official video can't be embed, so this is it. -.-
Life's like the sea. It's so wide, yet it seems kinda small. It's so blue, yet it's black. The sound of the shore brings relaxation, yet it could turn into billow, bringing intensification. This moment, you're enjoying all the sea breeze and sunshine. Next moment, you might get yourself into undercurrent, causing death. Right now, you could see all you want, the fishes, jellyfishes, all the pretty sea creatures. Next minute, all you could see is darkness, you seem like you're standing in a huge dark room, alone. You could be swimming, being first in the line, in the sea. Next you would be struggling, giving all your strength to survive. Life's like the sea. You may know where you're heading to right now, laughing off happily. You would lost all your way in split seconds, dashed hopes are all you have. If you happen to have a compass with you, it's probably dead. Now that's another challenge waiting up for you to beat it down.
Don't you agree?
Life's so awesome, you would love it so much but in split seconds, things would happen.
You'd hate life so much then, see, that's why people nowadyas commit suicides so easily.
Well, no worries, I'm not gonna commit suicide.
This is NOT a symptom of committing suicide like those psychologist said.
They say when one write stuffs about despairs of life, they're most likely gonna commit suicide. LOL
I just had random thoughts and I thought I'd like to write it up.
But y'know what?
I typed it all out in nicer words, nicer metaphor and it's lost in the draft box, and I don't remember much what I've typed.
It's just a sudden inspiration. For that, I shouted FML in my heart.
See, you don't see things coming sometimes. It's out of your expectation.
Anyway, life's full of challenge, even the billionaire has his own worries.
Even the happiest kid in the world has his own worries.
So, hitch it up, live your life (I'm not gonna say to the fullest. Having your life to the fullest may not be the best either, isn't it?) happily. =)
Ditch the unnecessary stuffs, seek for stuffs in need.
Expect the unexpected. ;)
It has been.. uhh, kinda bad. A few crappy weeks I had.
Trials were awful. Results are horrible.
The worst part? Since I was absent during English papers, I thought I wouldnt be calculated for the position in class and school,
but yes FML, just a couple of days ago I was told I will be in the list.
The worst worst part? I won't have TH (Tidak hadir) for my English result,
instead, I'll have a big ugly zero. First time ever. -_-
Anyway, maid went cuckoo everytime it's a full moon and the for last time, she insisted us to send her home.
And yes, we did.
So, I've been helping out mum a lil' here and there that my hands cracked, thanks to detergent.
So, yo, the new maid, you better come quickly and work properly.
Like five days ago? I sprained my freaking neck.
It got worst two days later. And now it has gone down to my shoulder.
Analgesic balm doesnt help =(
Sprained neck, stiff shoulders, I have no idea how am I gonna drive tomorrow.
And how to do the side parking stuffs etc etc? Forgotten. Thanks to trials.
And on Thursday night, I was shivering as if I'm under the air conditioner for hours but I wasn't.
Then, the loud banging on my door made me jumped off bed and I sensed something bad, without knowing it in details.
I prayed, I wished, I did whatever I could at that time.
I was so happy when nothing much happened.
When I got the details, my heart skipped a beat.
My heart, it stopped less than a second, and it beat again, pumping blood throughout the body, making sure I don't freak out or faint or whatever my body would have reacted.
I thanked god at that moment, so so much.
It was a miracle that happened. Totally miracle!
Tears of fear, eventually tears of grateful too.
Heart was still beating rapidly for the next few hours.
However, we settled down though it took quite some time.
So you guys out there, please appreciate your love ones 24/7, especially your family members.
No one beats your family member even if you fight everyday, doesnt talk to each other or don't even see them more than seeing your wall.
A new experience, a new kinda fear we all had.
But a miracle we had too. =)
Turn turtle is the scariest thing ever.
It's worst than having a ride on the scariest roller coaster,
One moment, I'm telling myself I've to study real hard.
At least for this trial then I can break a lil' before starting it all again for SPM.
But next moment, I'm slacking.
Watching TV, online, even just walking here and there.
I just don't feel like studying.
I dont like this kinda feeling, it's such a contradiction.
Mum knows I'm trying hard to study in my room, but she knows I doze off too after studying a while.
She's amazing, it's like she's able to see through my wooden door.
She's superb. She doesnt scold me for not studying, doesnt nag on me. I dont consider the way she talked to me was nagging, more like advising.
She knows best, cuz the more she nags, the more I feel frustrated and would give up.
But things just wont go into my head after reading it.
You know when you've read the same line for ten times and you didn't get what it means even though there isn't any words that you don't unerstand?
That happened, and I've no idea why. =(
And I've completely lost interest in Physics cuz I'm doing even worst nowadays.
Anyhow, I still have to study for trials even though I'm not taking the papers on the first day, and taking the others is just a waste cuz I can do nothing with the result.
So it makes me to feel like not studying even more.
But then I've to do it starting from this time to prove to dad.
I wanna get I want alright.
Wait, it's not what I want actually, it's what you want.
But at least let's do it in my way, yeah?
You didnt even listen to my explanations the other day and started to assume loadsa stuffs thus made dinner an awkward situation.
I still havent get the chance to explain til now but I'll let it be, for the moment. =)
By the way, am going overseas this weekend, so please don't text or call me dear friends, unless it's an emergency.
I'll see what I can do overseas and manage things out.
Studying plus traveling altogether, that's totally my first time.
So good luck to anyone who's gonna have their exams real soon.
We gotta prove to our teachers that we aren't that bad to make them stop nagging and being angry at us randomly on little little things. Hehe.
Hey guys! I've not been updating for a pretty long time. Heh.
So, first of all, something related to the previous post.
I did some sorta scope thingy (long ago) and I was so sleepy that day with the anesthetic, very blur that whole day.
Anyway, all the worries kinda went away with the anesthetic cuz I dont remember much what happened, and I felt quite relieved for that few days.
I got my result the next day and everything was pretty fine.
Just a couple of medicine here and there and some physiotherapy. =)
So, thank you people who texted me, left post on my wall in Facebook, etc etc.
Thanks for the concern! ;D
School has cross country run this Saturday, although it's compulsory for us to take part in it,
I wanna climb all the way up to add another record into my achievements. =D
And I guess I'll be climbing up with all my awesome classmates and friends this year. ;D
Then perhaps will be attending a BBQ party in the evening. Woohoo.
By the way, trial is coming and I'm really nervous but things just dont go into my mind.
I studied and studied the same topic again and again, it just goes out from my mind. Dang.
I'm trying real hard. I dont want anymore disappointments.
And I'd be skipping first day of trial cuz I'd be in Hong Kong.
Yes, thanks to my dad, I'd be studying in the plane and whenever I can there.
What a nice trip it'd be. =/
And the first day is English papers, great, cut down another A on my trial result. ><
Though I dont have to study up literature that soon! ;D
But I've gotta work real hard on the other subjects to achieve another A. Sheesh.
Cute, aint? =)
Everything's so fast-paced.
I've no idea what's the next path to take.
But life's life.
Things go on. Time doesnt wait.
I dont have the courage.
Neither do I wanna risk it.
And there's one thing I feel like giving up.
Should I?
*These pictures aren't mine. I dont have the time nor nice stuffs to photoshoot nowadays.
I've been in and out of the hospital lately. Sigh.
Seeing two doctors in a go, first time. And I had my first blood test ever. LOL.
Though it'd be really pain but it wasnt. =)
Got my result yesterday for MRI scans, ultrasound and blood test Monday.
Blood test and ultrasound results were good, except MRI. =(
Worst of all, I've to go back again for another scan on Friday,
which means I was told to skip school.
But this time, I'm not happy at all. ><
I almost freaked out when the doctor grabbed a Consent To Operation form.
Well, hope things would go really good on Friday. =)
Now that the blood test and ultrasound shows that everything that are tested is good,
I feel a lot better, not the MRI though. But the pain is still there.
Okay, I'm trying to be very positive. Shoo, you stupid syndrome, shoo.
BTW, met Yan Nee in the hospital too, different doctor but we both did blood test and ultrasound.
What a coincidence. LOL.
I better sleep early. I'm afraid. -.-
Loadsa friends have been seeing doctors lately, friends admitted to hospital, getting fever frequently, some even have really weird sickness for our age.
So so, you people out there, take care of your health, eat loadsa fruits and vegetables, get more vitamins. =)
And get loadsa sleep! Dont be like me. Heh.
Aww, it's so cute and adorable! ;D
I wouldnt be free to update, I guess?
Trials are coming real soon and I've not been studying yet.
Mum let me away when she signed my report card last week. I cant do that bad again this time. =S
And I'd have to find time to go swimming, one way to cure the bloody pain.
Needa sign up as member, oh so troublesome.
Have to go for physio therapy too, so I guess I'd be too tired to update too.
So toodles. Some sorta blog hiatus for the mean time. =)
Sparks fly, it's like electricity I might die when I forget how to breathe You get closer and there is no where in this world I'd rather be Time stops like everything around me is frozen And nothing matters but these Few moments when you open my mind to things I've never seen
Miranda Cosgrove, she's pretty okay though.
I've no idea, well, I just pretty like her singing this song. =)
BTW, happy birthday to my brother.
Yes, he may be pretty annoying back then but he has changed, somehow.
Well, at least he doesnt try to annoy me like he used to, aite, I'd say he has grown up.
And he's trying to be a good brother too, I can tell.
Y'know what bro, you're great, well, most of the time.
I'm not sure if you'd ever read this, but thank you.
For what you've done and trying to help around. ;D
So, what is it exactly?
Things have to get clear.
Almost like the puzzle piece I've been trying to find
And Jay Park! He's still so lovely.
Check out the lyrics he changed for the rapping part. ;D
But what was he doing at 0:40 to 0:43? Went blank. LOL
Remember I once posted this? JS' cover of Officially Missing You.
No, they're not any celebrities, but awesome singers. =)
They had concert in LA and other places too, if I'm not mistaken.
And I've always love hearing them singing.
Just looked through my subscription in Youtube and found this.
They sang Wonder Girls' Nobody in a very different way and I love this one. ;D
This two girls are freaking awesome and talented.
Janice and Sonia are twins, born and raised in Sydney.
They're Koreans, that's why they enunciate the language so well. =)
On Friday, SNSD's Gee kept playing in my head for the whole day.
Thanks to the school broadcast. -.-
As for Saturday, it was Wonder Girls' Nobody, the original version.
Had Super Junior's No Other kept playing in my head on Sunday, =)
Speaking about Super Junior, they just won awards again!! ;D
K-Chart winner once again on Music Bank
Ryeowook intruded EunHae moment. xD
Mutizen Award today, on Inkigayo.
Taecyeon got a hug from Siwon and Leeteuk suddenly, and Heechul frightened him by appearing beside him without making any noise.
What a surprising day for Taecyeon. LOL
Screen caps of No Other from Twelfs.
Most of all, love this one.
Ryeowook looks like "Come to me!" ;D
; )
=3
Well I thought I could just get over you baby
But I see that's something I just can't do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can't find a way to let go off you
Can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say, stays on my mind
And I, I'm officially
It's official
You know that I'm missing you
Oh yea yes, all I hear is raindrops
Ooh yea
And I'm officially missing you
I've listened to this song, There's No One Else Like You the morning it was released before going to school and I already like it since then.
I like it even more cuz of the lyrics.
It's practically saying..... Hmm. xD
Alright, I wanna buy Super Junior's 4th album repackage version.
Buuuut, I wanna save money. >.<
Gotta miss it, I guess? TnT
I'm gonna get this song, convert it to acc or whatever it is and make it my iphone's ringtone.
If not, it'd be my alarm alert. Or, it'd be both. xD
There's this new song too, I heard it's written by Eunhyuk?
For Kangin? But it feels like written for the three missing members. Sigh.
It's quite saddening.
Anyhoo, I accidently scraped my leg again, today.
I didnt know until I was bathing after school.
So I've scraped my left leg mysteriously, twice. -_- It's pretty scary. Haha.
And guess what, my bruises on my thigh, most people who saw it said it looks like a dog's paw.
Weird, huh? As if something happened to my leg. =.="'
BTW, random, funny stuffs happened in band room today.
And I think did something pretty weird and random today in band room. LOL
Now that I think back, I would laugh at myself. -.-
And wonder why did I do it? -_-
The moment of relaxing, feels free, no worries.
The moment where things are done for me.
The moment when the voice changed.
The moment when the concern turned different.
The moment I felt so calm.
I've never felt so and it was amazing. It feels like there are no worries at all. It made me feel like I know nothing about problem. You're amazing. You're the first to made me feel so.
The moment I cherish and appreciate so much.
The moment I'd like time to turn back to.
Would you bring me back?
It's just a saying for I want time to turn back, but as I always say, we people have to move on. So yeah, I'm moving on.
So...
Would you bring me to another moment when I'd be able to feel so relaxing again?
; )
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BTW, I've photoshot quite a number of pictures but I've no idea where I left it.
Will share some of my shots when I've the time to find it. =)
Here are some pics I've seen on the net lately.
This is kinda cute. Haha.
Pikachu to the rescue! Piikaa~!
LOL
Different people has different point of views,
and from these clouds picture,
what do you see?
Let me tell you,
I see four faces: two scary threatening ones, two frightened ones.
I see shadows by the side who are unable to help the frightened ones,
even with powerful weapons. >.<
I was so mad.
And I was feeling so terrible just now and I had some stuffs to share, but I had no one to talk to.
I've got Twitter and Plurk to talk to. -.-
Latest updates usually can be seen on my Twitter cuz I'm lazy to log on to blogger. x)
I wasnt being childish to be mad.
And I wasnt trying to be emo like what some people always do and never know when to do what is right.
Anyhoo, the best two stuffs out of three came from someone's mouth,
and I went to deep thinking on those nights after hearing it from you.
I feel happy, and thank you for making me realizing what I've done and achieved.
One more awesome stuffs came from someone which I think I'd look up to, probably not the personality but.. yeah, so..
I already felt so happy when you said it's just fine and hinting me that you've always been watching out.
And I made a promise that night, to myself, for I'd work even harder.
But then, I feel freaking happy, way much happier on the next day when you turned around,
grinned so happily at me while I was so worried,
so nervous when you're sitting right in front of me,
and gave me two thumbs up, nodding your head so fast so satisfyingly for how I did!
You made me puzzled cuz I thought I was gonna get another pep talk from you.
You probably never know how motivating and awesome it is to get a confirmation from you, for you probably wouldnt give us any thumbs up at all. =x
But yes I made it.
That lil' smack was quick so it kinda hurts but I made another promise at that moment.
And yes, I'll do even better. I'm not gonna disappoint you anymore cuz I did fine again after the thumbs up. =)
Once achieved, there's only improvements,
no dropping back.
Promised.
My finger still hurts, the wound just closed up like two days ago but it looked like it's gonna rot.
But it gets itchy today which literally means it's getting better. ;D
Searching and searching, in the deep dark sea.
For? Solutions.
Stress. Phobias.
I can still take it, but not for long.
Soon, I'll have to say, I cant take it anymore.
But I wont, I promise, I wont.
Phobias are phobias, that will not be shown anywhere outside my room.
I'll conquer it as much as possible.
I'm sorry if I somehow burst, I'm sorry if I forget about some things.
I'm sorry if I seemed breathless, I'm sorry we all are and we've to do it this way.
I'm sorry but I only have a head, mouth, nose, a pair of arms, hands and legs.
I wish I could do more.
Another day is always a new day, which means fresh start again.
Please look forward for what I can do, what we can do.
Glad to see the happy faces today, not the usual smile,
but the faces of joy, of success. =)
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Correction:
I said Jay Park's fanclub name is Bumblebee in the last few entry, based on the poll result.
But now, Park Jay Bum uploaded a video on his Youtube channel, gave a confirmation saying it's JayEffect.
So freaking awesome! And he has the best-est idea ever!
The fanclub group is known as JayEffect, which I voted.
And each member is known as JayWalker, which I voted too, hahaha.
And the official fanclub colour would be yellow and black, which is from the Bumblebee that has the highest number of votes.
I thought, why would all this people voted for Bumblebee?
Bumblebee is cute but imagine yourself wearing a hairband with two dangling "ears", black and yellow stripes tee, dressing like a bumblebee, attending Jay's events, while his bboy-ing,
it wouldnt look that cool, ay?
Jay is right, "JayWalkers is a cool name." ;D
"You guys could be, you know, JayEffect a.k.a. JayWalkers a.k.a my guardian angels"
Woohoo! And he's so sweet to keep apologizing and ended with a "you belong with me" to cheer us fans up. =)
Like how he did with the video, it may not be perfect but it's natural.
Poor him, has to do bilingual video. ; )
Though he's stuck with words, peeping around, and seemed didnt know how to do the starting. Haha.
But, who cares? It's Jay Park, Park Jay Bum!
Go Jay! ;D
Short the name, Am`s.
Plays the piano and percussion.
Loves instrumental, jazz and classical.
Likes to read. Fond of hugs.
Loves family and friends.
Call me being eccentric, but I've quite an aversion to liquor and abhor smoking.
Peace ; )
*Psst! I always either forgot or lazy to tag labels on every entry. So do excuse me if you cant stuffs under some labels.* =)
` More Lomo Cameras
` Learn another language; Korean?
` Get income :/
` New piano seriously.
` Vacations; Visit an Europe country
` A long break from everything
