It's been more than a month since I last update.
So.. anyway, I'm already here in Melbourne for more than a month and life's pretty alright.
Of course it's alright, I've proper rooms, meals everyday and gets to go to classes.

It was quite tough in the beginning, homesick, culture shock (yeah, a bit), thus muscles aches, tiredness, and a lot a lot more, but of course I fought through all this, and still fighting through.
Education system is a bit different and I likey it, unlike SPM, sit for the papers one time and that's it.
We've lil tests in mid term with assignments or presentation then the biggy exams at the end of the semester.
And at the end of the program , it's like they pick the best results throughout this two semesters and calculate for the final results. :)

But I seriously miss food at home. I've been trying so many Asian foods here and it's never as good as home.
Even the cafeteria guy in my hostel who cook for us, it never taste as good as mum's cookings.
And I'd always tell mum it's the same dish but it never taste the same and mum would says it's lack of love!
Hahaha, it's true it's true.

And whenever people ask how I'm doing in Melbourne and they always think it's so awesome here, well yeah it's awesome but you only see the pretty side.
Like, I dont tell you the ugly sides, y'know? And there's a lot a lot of things to consider here.
It's frustrating sometimes, and stressful but it's a good thing too, we're learning to be independent.
Partially independent, cuz money still comes from dad. ><
But at least we're slowing picking things up, learn to handle situations etc. :)

Do you know that having every meal here causes big headache? The cheapest you could find is like $6 or $7 and it's just a snack or something that wouldnt last you long. So it's like we spend $8-10 every meal here, for proper meals like a bowl of rice and a dish, or a bowl of noodles etc etc.
When we spend that much, we always think of we could buy 10 plates of chicken rice back home. :/

And another problem here is the internet! All the internets here are so so so expensive, or if it's worth it, it's not suitable for us students cuz they need homelines and we dont need that homeline.
Crap right, in Malaysia we pay RM88 for unlimited wifi, yes, WIFI!
Here? In my hostel we get special rates for students, $29, which is like RM90 for 1GB only, yes, 1 freaking GB only and that's basically like watch 10 Youtube videos and all gone.
Of course we can go on higher plans but it's gonna cost us so much more, not worth it at all.

Anyhow, of course first few weeks were bit tough especially when we dont know anyone, we dont know how to do certain things and not used to everything here yet.
But we adapted quite quickly, I guess?
But making friends' a bit tough, sigh.

My class is like 90% Chinese from China, two Vietnamese, one from Papua New Guinea, and they all look alright but.. I'm not gonna say anything here bout that.
Some of them are really nice people, really. :)

And I'm glad I went to the camp or more like a getaway trip organized by my uni.
Found out that there's so many Malaysians! :D You would never understand that kinda joy LOL
We were having bushwalk, and I was walking with Donna, my Vietnamese classmate, cuz only four of us from our class went to the camp.
Then you would hear those September '10 intake students going around saying hi to people and making new friends.
Some of them approached Donna and I and.. they're all Malaysians! How wonderful. It just felt like I'm in Malaysia. :)
And we had other activities too and I met a few Indonesian Chineses, few more Vietnamese, China Chinese, a girl from Papua New Guinea and etc. :D

It was really good experience and I love that place up there. We were at a campsite with proper rooms, beds, showers and etc near Mount Disappointment.
Yeaah, Mount Disappointment, like so disappointing. LOL
Too bad we didnt have campfire, but we stayed up late that night to play cards and killer. ;)

The September intake people are really nice.
Maybe cuz they understand the feeling of being new here not knowing anyone and struggling by ourselves?
They're much friendly than my classmates and they would talk to us, ask us to join along etc.
Unlike my classmates. :x

Discovered a couple of things, or should I say, understand more about certain things.
But it was good experiences. :)

There's too much to say, too much to share but all this good experiences are gonna be kept in my heart forever. :)

I'm not gonna update blog that often anymore. I guess I'll just do it on Facebook or just not update.
Anyway, check out photos from the camp here and here!!
I'm too lazy to get the photos uploaded here, so just go view it there. :)

Labels: Daily Life

My flight's in the evening later on, and sadly, my friends couldnt make it.
It's alright, I guess? At least I wont cry, and I'll just leave like as usual, as if going for hols. :)

I couldnt believe time flies so fast. When I was saying there's still a month, it felt like last week only, but see how fast time has passed that I'm leaving in a few hours time.

It's pretty tough packing cuz I feel like bringing everything over, even my pillows and plush toys but of course I cant.
My luggages are so full that we're so afraid that they'll be overweight. My mum and I kept weighing our luggage. LOL
And girls are always girls. I thought I wouldnt bring many stuffs over, but when I started to pack and look through my room, I'd realize I havent pack this, I havent pack that, there's still this and that... xD
But it's all the needy stuffs, just the autumn winter clothing that are taking up much space and those hard objects too. So, instead of two luggage only, after packing up my last minute stuffs like last few clothes and toiletries pouch, pencil case, slippers and a few books, am using half of one of my bro's luggage. xD

No choice, everyone said girls are never ending when it comes to packing. And I wasnt that kinda girl all this while, except this 'trip', cuz I wanna bring over so many stuffs. LOL

And although we're not very very very close, most of my relatives have been giving us extra red packets and telling us to study hard. And they somehow found out my mobile number when we didnt give them.
So I've been receiving a few messages for the pass few days, it's all the wishes and blessings.

I was pretty surprised that although we're not very very close but still close, they did remember when we're leaving and doing things that I didnt thought they would. So, much appreciated, thank you for all the wishes and everything! <3

By the way, I'll be bringing my Malaysian number over to Melbourne first til my parents come back to Penang. So, dont text to my number after 6pm today til the 20th. After that, if you needa contact my family or stuffs, or you couldnt get to me, just text to my Malaysian number, and my family will reply you.

Anyhow, there's always this internet thing, so just contact me through Facebook or Skype. I'd check Facebook pretty frequently, pm me or post on my wall, I'll get back to you. Or leave me your Skype name, I'll add you up and you can contact me there too. Or if you've a smartphone, let me know if you use Pingchat! and Viber and I'll add you up too. :D Maybe Whatsapp too, later on.

It's not a big deal after all, this internet thingy is so so so convenient. :)

So, goodbye Penang, hello Melbourne!
Hello new life, new people and I wont forget all of you here in Penang. <3

Labels: Daily Life, Thoughts

Seven days left.

I'm pretty happy and excited but at the same time, I think I'll miss home a lot and my parents and my sisters! ><
I've been searching around places to eat Malaysian food or at least buy small comfort food, places where Malaysians most gather around, and places to buy the usual stuffs I use.

But yeah, I guess I'll get used after some time and I'd be trying different things.
I did some googling and I found a lot of photos and videos, I read up what the previous students have to say.
So... It's a pretty very awesome place to study. See for yourself.






It's more like a, no not a, it has a lot a lot of buildings so they all looks like shopping malls, art museum, some kinda royal castle etc etc!
Well, it's in the city so down the streets or few streets away has a lot of shops, cafes, restaurants and malls.
Of course I searched up what are the shops there and so, pretty awesome, so far. :D

Too bad they dont have shops like Forever 21, Zara there but they do have Cotton On (of course) so it's pretty alright and since young I know they have a lot of vintage shops there and in my memory, Melbourne has a lot of places to shop, so no worries, I dont think I'ld get bored of the life there.

Furthermore, it's a whole new life there and it's much bigger than Penang so, definitely many places to explore! :)
And I thought Melbourne is like Little Asia, y'know, like Little India in Penang but I find that Melbourne is like a little whole world! Cuz it's like people from practically all over the world is studying, working and living in Melb.

So, I hope to meet up more people of different races and hopefully pick up a new language and getta know more about the world and culture. :)
Hopefully, I could make Korean friends! x)

I think I've a lot, too much to say but I'm having a flu now, and it's pretty annoying typing with this half blocked nose so, toodles for now.

Shall continue my googling, brush up English, read up the laws in Melbourne, prepare my stuffs and watch Korean shows and catching up Secret Garden (I didnt know it'd be such a big hit, so I didnt follow it like how I watched the other dramas, which is watch it as soon as they've it with subs. So I'm watching it now to understand why people like it so much.)

Anyway, watch these too!




P.S I was typing pretty quickly so there may be a few typos and wrong punctuation and stuffs, so just ignore it, pretty lazy to check again. Toodles!

Labels: Daily Life, Thoughts

Things.. have changed, once again.
And it's not anything like the initial plan either.
Okay, fine, maybe it's pretty similar to the very very very initial plan which isn't in my memory anymore until today, while I was doing some thinking.

I'm gonna miss everything here. Sigh.
There's so many things to bring over, and there's so many things that I could not bring over but I really want to.
This is tougher than moving house. :/

And worst thing? I wont have a camera with me. I guess I've to leave my DSLR here.
But I need a camera. But I cant be spending thousands again.
There's so many buts LOL. Contradicting! ><

Maybe someone can give me a black Sony NEX 5 as a farewell gift? :p
I'm just hoping.. no harm hoping, right? x)

Aight, I'm seriously trying to make good use of my days here.
Call me, text me, I'd love to meet almost everyone up. :)

Labels: Daily Life

I've started college.
It has a pretty bad timetable and management but it's still pretty alright.
I wanted to go Taylor's so badly but it's alright now.. somehow.
I've accepted the fact that I've to study a subject that I don't want to.
Well, I actually am studying the whole course that wasn't in my plan initially. LOL.
And everything has gone so different from the plans.
From plan A to plan B to plan C then plan D and it goes on and on.
Contradiction!

And, maybe January intake is meant for those students that are very very keen and nervous bout studies?
Almost everyone looked pretty geeky. Almost, I said, almost. :)
And they seem very smart, like they're all almost from A, B, C classes in their high schools.
But, of course there are some pretty nice people.

I'm basically mixing with people that I don't actually mix around with during primary school and/or high school.
Giving almost everyone a chance, cuz I deserve a chance, people deserve a chance too.
It's college now, forget bout high school and primary school.
Just like Tony said, we're all a piece of blank sheet to him and the SSD, which is the Student Service Department. :)

So, I'm trying to meet more people, but I somehow don't seem as active as some other people. Ha!
Maybe I'm just too shy? Heh.
But it took me by surprise that I actually went to talk to this new girl, all the way from Taiping. She's alright, basically. :)
And too bad those other nationalities students are taking different courses from mine, I don't getta meet people from Japan, Egypt etc etc. ><

College life seems alright so far.. except I'm still waking up very early every morning. Sigh, I thought I could sleep in. :p
We had BBQ night in college the other day, it was okay. Looking forward to movie night now.
Imagine the whole cinema being occupied by us! x)

But, this week has been a very very very bad bad baaaad week. :((
I shall not talk about it.

Besides, am coping pretty hard with most of the subjects. I'm like whaat? Huh? What's she talking about? during classes like Accountings. :(
Sometimes I wonder why the hell did I take pure science for secondary education. LOL.

So, yeah, I'll see what I can do with what I have and hoping I could get good scores.
And people, we should mix around and not stick to the same groups. LOL!
We're now kinda being categorized as the Peng Hwa girls. -.-

Hoping to meet more people, never try, never find good friends and course mates.
I don't want my college life to be dull and full of studies only even though studies is important.

And if you ever know any Accounting tutor, please let me know! Text me, PM me, or something, thank you!

Toodles for now. :)

Labels: Daily Life, Feelings/Comment

Heyyo, I'm back, like finally!
I know SPM has ended like days ago, but I didnt have the chance to log onto Blogger.

So, SPM has ended, but life isn't as fun as those kiddos thought it would be.
They're saying how good we can party day and night, hangout with friends frequently, etc.
But what they dont know is that now is the toughest time.

Cuz we have to decide our next path, like NOW!
Wrong decision, wrong life, you ruin it all, screw yourself.
So, yeah, am facing this problem and my dad is like pretty un-decisive.

Well, I'll just stick to the plan then, since whatever that I wanted is rejected. ;(
And dad wanting me to study this study that is pretty annoying. ><
I mean, of course I want good jobs in future and get good pay, be a smart girl too.
But sometimes, certain jobs just isnt my thing even it pays a lot.
So yeah, hopefully dad would just stop making me changing my mind.

Hopefully college life isn't too tough?
My bro is like hanging out everyday, hope I could do a good use of college life.
Maybe a job after classes? Or a job during the weekend.
Earning some cash is way better than getting it all from parents and spend, spend, spend.

But it's pretty tough to find jobs that would slot into my time well and with my dad being pretty protective.
I know I'm a girl, but am an ambitious girl.
I cant rely on you for my whole life, dad.
Even if you earn enough money for us to live our whole life, I cant do that too, I just wont.

Pretty annoyed nowadays but I guess things will be alright if I have a chance to discuss it with mum.
We'll see. :)

Oh, and now that I didnt get any job nor have allowance (as if I used to), I'm seriously broke.
I dont have much money left. ;(

And the plan I had, to carry out during days after SPM and before college is like, ruined. ;(
Dreams shattered, cant realize my dreams so soon.
Better actions needed. Oh crap.

And, is anyone enrolling for Disted? Let's be schoolmates or classmates. :D

Labels: Daily Life

Last day of October, I am seriously seriously gonna ditch my laptop.
I'm gonna pass it to my mum right after I finish this entry.
I'm not kidding. But I still have my mobile phone, which is so convenient to online. -.-

So, I wanted to off my mobile phone, but naah, I couldnt do that.
Dad's gonna make a big fuss if he happens to couldn't contact me.


But, I'm gonna be really determined this time.
Finding back the determination that I've had for the past four years.
Striving hard, just to be able to stay in marching band.

I lost it, right on the year that I've SPM, that's really crappy. ;(
And finding it back was really tough all this while, struggling here and there.

In the beginning of the year, parents kinda mean something like get 10As to persuade parents to let me realize my dreams.
But when I know dad has "secretly" planned everything ahead for me, I kinda lost hope.
But it's quite alright now, I'm used to him with his planssss.

All I'm gonna do now is to study as much as I could.
Like mum always said, as long as I put in effort, as long as I tried my very best.
People are so gonna think that I'm stupid or lazy or whatever if I don't get many As, but that never really bug me.
All that matters is mum believes in me. =)



I knocked my head real hard this morning, I'm having migraine now.
Hope it's nothing serious. :/

And peeps out there, stop texting me nonsense or sending random messages on Facebook.
No, I'm not showing off anything here.
Guys, I've no interest in all this crappy junk like asking me questions as if I've committed crimes, insisting me to answer questions that I don't have and don't need to answer!
I kinda took an oath couple of years back and especially it's so near to SPM, Imma just let it slide.

And I always tried to help people around me and don't mind lending my ears, my shoulders but now that I myself couldn't find a pair of ears for myself, who's gonna help me when I feel like collapsing, when I'm really falling apart?

Labels: Daily Life, Thoughts

Mandy, Kelly, Geok Cheng and Rou Ning were way nervous than I was and they're such tacit friends.
What a bombsheel!
They kinda screamed together when Mandy insisted the paper has my name on it, when I strongly disagree.
So yeah, it wasn't me, and Kelly nagged on Mandy for giving me false hopes, like a mother. LOL
It's alright, mates, no worries. As long as we had fun, ain't? =)

And they had singing-drama-episodes when this song was playing.

Kelly and Mandy would made it through to success if they choose being a comedian as their career. :D
They even imitate cats and meow-ed loudly a lot a lot of times. Hope no one else heard it, or they'd think we're crazy. x)

So, thank you sir for everything. All the teachings, all the laughters, all the awesome memories.
And thank you mates too, for making tuition even more fun with all the random stuffs and jokes, even all the silly embarrassing moments. ♥♥

Labels: Daily Life, Pictures, Thoughts

I'd love to write an entry on the graduation ceremony and the graduation night dinner.
I would really love to, but I can't. I could but I just can't. If you get what I mean.

I'll write it up, some other day, but I guess it probably won't be posted til December and by then I might eventually just ignore it. :/
But I really do have a lot of thoughts, thoughts on everything. Seriously everything.

Here's some.. teaser? Sneak peek would be a better word.
*Seriously influenced by the kpop industry LOL*

Best two selcas of the day:

Desk mates FTW! ♥♥♥♥♥♥ Bee Gaik, Joella, me & Mandy!

BTW, loadsa thanks to the graduation night dinner president!
She did a really great job with her fellow committees. ♥♥♥
The technical problems weren't their fault, we don't blame them. It's the school's fault. x)
Thanks for making our graduation dinner an awesome one =)



Okay, you'd probably think we're crazy, with all the make ups and stuffs.
So, here's a pic to make it up.

Labels: Daily Life, Friends, Performance, Pictures

It's our graduation ceremony tomorrow!
OMG after studying in Peng Hwa for 14 years, finally I'm graduating from Peng Hwa ENTIRELY!
I've gone through PCK (No, it's not Phua Chu Kang, it's Penang Chinese Kindergarten LOL) graduation, PCGPS graduation and none of it feels as good as graduating from PCGHS.

PCGHS is known for its famous 5cm length hair, sideburns not longer than the hair behind, no hair pins are allowed except the typical traditional one, no pulling fringe upwards and pin it up, we've to queue up like kindergarten til the morning session finish school when we're in afternoon session, no walking into staffs room except monitors and AJKs, not allowed to bring medicine unless permission granted, no pictures of celebrities are allowed, etc etc etc

But I've broke it all, most of us have broke it all, or I've did stuffs that are even worst. Heh.

I can't imagine what would it be like for me to sit in the seats of the graduants for real this time.
Every year, it was us, band members practicing hard, trying to dedicate to our seniors the best performance as much as possible.
There'll be one song specially dedicating to the seniors, after the VIPs and parents have left the hall.
We'd practice real hard even though we know we'd still get cheers from the form five and upper six students cuz usually they wouldn't know even if we've played wrongly unless it's too obvious or it's our own members.

Now, it's my turn to sit with the graduands and watch the band perform.
Look at how time has flew.

I probably would cry tomorrow, or maybe not. I'm telling myself not to. x)
But one thing for sure is, all the moments we had would definitely play all again in my mind.
Especially when they play Warabe Uta Fantasy, the song that I've practiced the most this year, the song that we performed on Dewan Sri Pinang together for the first time.
The song that we played during the event that people have acknowledged ........ ;x  =)

You probably don't understand what I'm talking already, cuz I myself don't too. LOL

Anyhoo, goodie luck to us! We've to rock the stage tomorrow night.
Dance it all right for the very last time after all the nerve wrecking auditions. =)
I really do hope the make ups not gonna smudge if we happen to cry, I'm still betting with Mandy that I'm not gonna cry x)

I was at the seminar in CLHS for two days and I didn't learn the 谢师宴主题曲&插曲 -.-
Everyone's gonna sing it tomorrow and I don't even know how to =(
All I know is the funeral-like graduation song that I've heard for the past four years.

So, I'm just gonna do whatever I could to have more awesome memories. =)



The official video can't be embed, so this is it. -.-

Labels: Daily Life, Thoughts

Oh great, my Malay language teacher picked me to attend a seminar tomorrow.
At first I thought, cool, I don't have to attend Malay seminar outside then.
Then I got the bad news, it's a 2 day seminar program thingy.
6 and a half hours for each day. =(
And as if that's not the worst part, I got a worst than worst news. (If that's a word LOL)

I've to attend this freaking seminar at......
CLHS.
Yeah, that all guy school. I don't really like going there. -.-

And since the teacher said it's compulsory, I went to see the counsellor to get my permission slip thingy today.
Bad idea! Cuz I wasn't in school on Friday and IDK why, somehow the teacher has cancelled my name from the list.
I didn't know it and while the teacher was writing my name again into the list, she said 'actually if you didn't come, I would have give the place to someone else.' =__=

So fine, I'm going, since Lee May's going, I've someone to accompany me, and I'd accompany her.
Though I'm not sure if she'd start searching for her bf. x)

But now that I'm thinking bout it again, I'm so lazy to go.
I'd rather spend my time in school singing graduation songs times after times than attending a 6 hours seminar.
Thought of getting a MC but naah, mum wouldn't bring me for that.

So Imma just let it slide.

Seriously hope it's a useful two day seminar.
Imma stuck there for around 6 hours long and it better be worth it.
I'm lucky to get to attend this for free but unlucky too cuz I don't like going to other schools, and I don't like the Malay language. -.-
It's half lucky, half unlucky.

I hope the school would leave me some good impression, since the last few times I saw it was like.... heh heh. ;)

Til then. :D

Labels: Daily Life

I want a polaroid camera.
Preferably Fuji Instax Mini 50s. The piano-black series.
But since it's quite new, it's gonna cost me a lot.
And thanks to not having allowance all year round.
Not much, mum just gave me a lil' here and there and I've been spending my savings all this while for meals in school.

You'd definitely think how do I have savings when I don't have allowance, right?
Haha, thanks to my lovely grandmother. =)
But that's the reason too, cuz she gives me money, that's why mum doesn't give me allowance.
She probably worry I might have too much money. Heh.

But I'm not that kinda kid that would spend anytime I want, except I spend a lil' more this year compare to the past 10 years, since I get allowance. LOL

So, I'd really love it , love you, if you buy me a Fuji Instax mini 50s! x)
I'm just saying, but I really do hope someone will give me that as a gift? =p
If it's troublesome for you to go to a mall and get it, use The *Click* Shop, x)

I want it for my graduation night dinner, which is coming Saturday o_o
<3

This week will be one hectic week, I guess?
Monday has rehearsal once again, Tuesday and Wednesday are occupied with that six and a half hours thingy, should be having graduation ceremony rehearsal on Thursday and Friday too, I guess?
Saturday is our graduation day! Ceremony on the morning and dinner plus performances at night.
Sunday is occupied by driving lesson again. Shall be real tiring.

BTW, I pass my driving pre-test un-noticing-ly. LOL
I didnt even know that the test has started. Uncle seems worried at first. Hahaha.
I've confident to pass on my test day, unless I'm too nervous again. x)
Yes yes, I'm gonna get my license real soooooon. =)

Labels: Daily Life

It has been.. uhh, kinda bad. A few crappy weeks I had.
Trials were awful. Results are horrible.

The worst part? Since I was absent during English papers, I thought I wouldnt be calculated for the position in class and school,
but yes FML, just a couple of days ago I was told I will be in the list.
The worst worst part? I won't have TH (Tidak hadir) for my English result,
instead, I'll have a big ugly zero. First time ever. -_-

Anyway, maid went cuckoo everytime it's a full moon and the for last time, she insisted us to send her home.
And yes, we did.
So, I've been helping out mum a lil' here and there that my hands cracked, thanks to detergent.
So, yo, the new maid, you better come quickly and work properly.

Like five days ago? I sprained my freaking neck.
It got worst two days later. And now it has gone down to my shoulder.
Analgesic balm doesnt help =(
Sprained neck, stiff shoulders, I have no idea how am I gonna drive tomorrow.
And how to do the side parking stuffs etc etc? Forgotten. Thanks to trials.

And on Thursday night, I was shivering as if I'm under the air conditioner for hours but I wasn't.
Then, the loud banging on my door made me jumped off bed and I sensed something bad, without knowing it in details.
I prayed, I wished, I did whatever I could at that time.
I was so happy when nothing much happened.
When I got the details, my heart skipped a beat.

My heart, it stopped less than a second, and it beat again, pumping blood throughout the body, making sure I don't freak out or faint or whatever my body would have reacted.
I thanked god at that moment, so so much.
It was a miracle that happened. Totally miracle!

Tears of fear, eventually tears of grateful too.
Heart was still beating rapidly for the next few hours.
However, we settled down though it took quite some time.

So you guys out there, please appreciate your love ones 24/7, especially your family members.
No one beats your family member even if you fight everyday, doesnt talk to each other or don't even see them more than seeing your wall.

A new experience, a new kinda fear we all had.
But a miracle we had too. =)

Labels: Daily Life, Thoughts

One week plus of holidays. 13 days, to be exact.
Dang glad it's hols, I wouldnt want exams to come so soon.
I should really study though my teacher told me take the trial as a practice only since I cant do anything with my results without taking the English paper.
Well, that's what she thinks. I still have to study.

Remember I went overseas, well I'm pretty lazy to update what happened in Hong Kong.
But I'll put up some photos from Hong Kong soon.

To view pictures I took on Merdeka Day, search it up in my Facebook photos album. =)
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It's nice talking to you again. Same ol' same ol'.
You got me off guard when you mentioned our dreams, the promise we made.
Things seem to be going alright for you, but not me.
I'm sorry if I've to break the promise but you seem considerate and cheer me up instead.
It feels so familiar when you still speak to me like you used to, yet strange.

But I'm just glad you're doing alright, realizing your dreams, doing things that you like.
I find it quite awkward sometimes, when we know what we've to say but we couldnt say it.
Let's break the ice. ; )

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Had live updates on SM Town in LA this morning and it was epic!

Labels: Daily Life

I've no idea what I want.

One moment, I'm telling myself I've to study real hard.
At least for this trial then I can break a lil' before starting it all again for SPM.
But next moment, I'm slacking.
Watching TV, online, even just walking here and there.
I just don't feel like studying.

I dont like this kinda feeling, it's such a contradiction.

Mum knows I'm trying hard to study in my room, but she knows I doze off too after studying a while.
She's amazing, it's like she's able to see through my wooden door.
She's superb. She doesnt scold me for not studying, doesnt nag on me. I dont consider the way she talked to me was nagging, more like advising.
She knows best, cuz the more she nags, the more I feel frustrated and would give up.

But things just wont go into my head after reading it.
You know when you've read the same line for ten times and you didn't get what it means even though there isn't any words that you don't unerstand?
That happened, and I've no idea why. =(
And I've completely lost interest in Physics cuz I'm doing even worst nowadays.

Anyhow, I still have to study for trials even though I'm not taking the papers on the first day, and taking the others is just a waste cuz I can do nothing with the result.
So it makes me to feel like not studying even more.
But then I've to do it starting from this time to prove to dad.

I wanna get I want alright.
Wait, it's not what I want actually, it's what you want.
But at least let's do it in my way, yeah?
You didnt even listen to my explanations the other day and started to assume loadsa stuffs thus made dinner an awkward situation.
I still havent get the chance to explain til now but I'll let it be, for the moment. =)

By the way, am going overseas this weekend, so please don't text or call me dear friends, unless it's an emergency.
I'll see what I can do overseas and manage things out.
Studying plus traveling altogether, that's totally my first time.

So good luck to anyone who's gonna have their exams real soon.
We gotta prove to our teachers that we aren't that bad to make them stop nagging and being angry at us randomly on little little things. Hehe.

Toodles for now.

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I went to Mei Thung's BBQ party yesterday and it was fun although we were quite exhausted after the cross country run. =)

It was raining like hell the moment we started the cross country run and we were all wet like we just came out from swimming pool.
But Laurine, Meithung, Shuen Yee and I made it up to the top in less than an hour, while Man Thing who said wanna run with me had gone way far.
Some steps were pretty slippery and we almost fall down, but luckily we didnt. =)

When we almost reach the finishing line, Ms Ng eavesdropped what we were saying when we were at the junction to school.
She was like, Oh you girls are band members, you all should have better stamina compare to others and run til the end.
Due to lack of running for we form 5 girls this year, I kindly answered her, we already tried our very best to run up the hill and we're now here. And gave her a grin. LOL



I didnt bring my camera, because I thought it's bulky and I eventually forgot about it.
So, all the pics (except a couple) are taken by Carmen, my lovely schoolmate/tuition mate back in primary school, which is one year younger than me. =)
We had so much in common, she has the same iphone cover as I do, the I <3 Paul Frank cover, and she changed it before coming to the party.
And I changed my mind not to wear my Lacoste collar T-shirt last minute and she wore it, the exact same one, same colour! LOL


Mei Thung's box of charcoal ended up was a box of drinking water, so while waiting for the charcoal to arrive, Man Thing and I played around in the beach.
We went to the shore, dig the sand with out feet, she buried my feet in the beach, we pushed each other (it was a game) and etc etc.


Then, we sang Mei Thung birthday song and look! Her cake has an octopus. LOL
Didnt know she's an octopus too. Third octopus in percussion, after me, and Nan Rou.

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Hey guys! I've not been updating for a pretty long time. Heh.
So, first of all, something related to the previous post.
I did some sorta scope thingy (long ago) and I was so sleepy that day with the anesthetic, very blur that whole day.
Anyway, all the worries kinda went away with the anesthetic cuz I dont remember much what happened, and I felt quite relieved for that few days.
I got my result the next day and everything was pretty fine.
Just a couple of medicine here and there and some physiotherapy. =)

So, thank you people who texted me, left post on my wall in Facebook, etc etc.
Thanks for the concern! ;D

School has cross country run this Saturday, although it's compulsory for us to take part in it,
I wanna climb all the way up to add another record into my achievements. =D
And I guess I'll be climbing up with all my awesome classmates and friends this year. ;D
Then perhaps will be attending a BBQ party in the evening. Woohoo.

By the way, trial is coming and I'm really nervous but things just dont go into my mind.
I studied and studied the same topic again and again, it just goes out from my mind. Dang.
I'm trying real hard. I dont want anymore disappointments.

And I'd be skipping first day of trial cuz I'd be in Hong Kong.
Yes, thanks to my dad, I'd be studying in the plane and whenever I can there.
What a nice trip it'd be. =/
And the first day is English papers, great, cut down another A on my trial result. ><
Though I dont have to study up literature that soon! ;D
But I've gotta work real hard on the other subjects to achieve another A. Sheesh.

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I've been in and out of the hospital lately. Sigh.
Seeing two doctors in a go, first time. And I had my first blood test ever. LOL.

Though it'd be really pain but it wasnt. =)
Got my result yesterday for MRI scans, ultrasound and blood test Monday.
Blood test and ultrasound results were good, except MRI. =(

Worst of all, I've to go back again for another scan on Friday,
which means I was told to skip school.
But this time, I'm not happy at all. ><
I almost freaked out when the doctor grabbed a Consent To Operation form.
Well, hope things would go really good on Friday. =)

Now that the blood test and ultrasound shows that everything that are tested is good,
I feel a lot better, not the MRI though. But the pain is still there.
Okay, I'm trying to be very positive. Shoo, you stupid syndrome, shoo.

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Yipee! I had my braces removed yesterday! After 4 years.

Am just so happy, I dont have to go to the orthodontic anymore.
No more metals, no more rubber bands to tighten the teeth, no more weird arch in the mouth... most of all, I dont have to endure the pain anymore! ;D

It felt kinda weird at first. It looks like a bunch of fake teeth. -_-
Cuz they cleaned it all for me and it was so white that it looks so fake, with the teeth being so straight.
But yeah I got used to it after a while. =)

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In fact, I've more classes to attend. Sigh.

Mum made me to take up all three intensive classes Anthony's giving.
Shouldnt have told her in details when she asked.
Now, I've to wake up at 7 every Sunday morning and start my day with either Physic or Add Maths and end my day with either Physic or Chemistry.
It's gonna last at least 6 weeks. Sigh.

Someone please make me stay awake during classes. -.-
I think I'd fall asleep although I'm kinda afraid of Anthony. -.-

I really do think it's time to really strive.
I've been fooling around way more than enough.
No more band practices for me, more tuition classes for me, more study time.



I feel really bad when my mum told me this yesterday, which literally was:
I know you wanna study, I know you're trying very hard but you always fall asleep if you're studying alone. So I've no choice but send you to intensive classes. You've to work hard for SPM...
Man! How did she know when I was always out of her sight. -_-

Aite, so getting 10As is a bit impossible for me. Wait, not just a bit. ><
But I've to at least try my very best and get as many as I can, right?
So since I'm not busy 24/7, I'd like to take up Biology.
Yes, stare at me if you want, I am not kidding.
After giving up Biology for a year and half, I wanna read it all up, last minute.
Dont mind if I get a C but I just wanna pass it all.
Biology seems easier to score than Physics now. =.="'

My Biology teacher in school this year is terrible, the one who taught me Science in form 3 and made me fail in school exams. :x
I'm sorry but you never actually teach but read everything on the slides to us, or kept doing really doink stuffs.


So friends, I am looking for anyone who is good in Biology, among friends.
Just make me study, let me have someone to ask when I dont know and most of all, just make it easier for me to memorize, by jokes if you want. LOL
Cuz it's easier for me to remember stuffs when it's in a conversation.
But since it's still July, group study wouldnt work on me much cuz I guess we'd probably end up talking.
For the mean time I'd just like someone like a tutor. =)

Anyone? Text me! ;D

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