Last day of October, I am seriously seriously gonna ditch my laptop.
I'm gonna pass it to my mum right after I finish this entry.
I'm not kidding. But I still have my mobile phone, which is so convenient to online. -.-

So, I wanted to off my mobile phone, but naah, I couldnt do that.
Dad's gonna make a big fuss if he happens to couldn't contact me.


But, I'm gonna be really determined this time.
Finding back the determination that I've had for the past four years.
Striving hard, just to be able to stay in marching band.

I lost it, right on the year that I've SPM, that's really crappy. ;(
And finding it back was really tough all this while, struggling here and there.

In the beginning of the year, parents kinda mean something like get 10As to persuade parents to let me realize my dreams.
But when I know dad has "secretly" planned everything ahead for me, I kinda lost hope.
But it's quite alright now, I'm used to him with his planssss.

All I'm gonna do now is to study as much as I could.
Like mum always said, as long as I put in effort, as long as I tried my very best.
People are so gonna think that I'm stupid or lazy or whatever if I don't get many As, but that never really bug me.
All that matters is mum believes in me. =)



I knocked my head real hard this morning, I'm having migraine now.
Hope it's nothing serious. :/

And peeps out there, stop texting me nonsense or sending random messages on Facebook.
No, I'm not showing off anything here.
Guys, I've no interest in all this crappy junk like asking me questions as if I've committed crimes, insisting me to answer questions that I don't have and don't need to answer!
I kinda took an oath couple of years back and especially it's so near to SPM, Imma just let it slide.

And I always tried to help people around me and don't mind lending my ears, my shoulders but now that I myself couldn't find a pair of ears for myself, who's gonna help me when I feel like collapsing, when I'm really falling apart?

Labels: Daily Life, Thoughts

Mandy, Kelly, Geok Cheng and Rou Ning were way nervous than I was and they're such tacit friends.
What a bombsheel!
They kinda screamed together when Mandy insisted the paper has my name on it, when I strongly disagree.
So yeah, it wasn't me, and Kelly nagged on Mandy for giving me false hopes, like a mother. LOL
It's alright, mates, no worries. As long as we had fun, ain't? =)

And they had singing-drama-episodes when this song was playing.

Kelly and Mandy would made it through to success if they choose being a comedian as their career. :D
They even imitate cats and meow-ed loudly a lot a lot of times. Hope no one else heard it, or they'd think we're crazy. x)

So, thank you sir for everything. All the teachings, all the laughters, all the awesome memories.
And thank you mates too, for making tuition even more fun with all the random stuffs and jokes, even all the silly embarrassing moments. ♥♥

Labels: Daily Life, Pictures, Thoughts

For those who are heading to halloween parties,
if you're underage, please remember not to drink.

I'd love to write an entry on the graduation ceremony and the graduation night dinner.
I would really love to, but I can't. I could but I just can't. If you get what I mean.

I'll write it up, some other day, but I guess it probably won't be posted til December and by then I might eventually just ignore it. :/
But I really do have a lot of thoughts, thoughts on everything. Seriously everything.

Here's some.. teaser? Sneak peek would be a better word.
*Seriously influenced by the kpop industry LOL*

Best two selcas of the day:

Desk mates FTW! ♥♥♥♥♥♥ Bee Gaik, Joella, me & Mandy!

BTW, loadsa thanks to the graduation night dinner president!
She did a really great job with her fellow committees. ♥♥♥
The technical problems weren't their fault, we don't blame them. It's the school's fault. x)
Thanks for making our graduation dinner an awesome one =)



Okay, you'd probably think we're crazy, with all the make ups and stuffs.
So, here's a pic to make it up.

Labels: Daily Life, Friends, Performance, Pictures

It's our graduation ceremony tomorrow!
OMG after studying in Peng Hwa for 14 years, finally I'm graduating from Peng Hwa ENTIRELY!
I've gone through PCK (No, it's not Phua Chu Kang, it's Penang Chinese Kindergarten LOL) graduation, PCGPS graduation and none of it feels as good as graduating from PCGHS.

PCGHS is known for its famous 5cm length hair, sideburns not longer than the hair behind, no hair pins are allowed except the typical traditional one, no pulling fringe upwards and pin it up, we've to queue up like kindergarten til the morning session finish school when we're in afternoon session, no walking into staffs room except monitors and AJKs, not allowed to bring medicine unless permission granted, no pictures of celebrities are allowed, etc etc etc

But I've broke it all, most of us have broke it all, or I've did stuffs that are even worst. Heh.

I can't imagine what would it be like for me to sit in the seats of the graduants for real this time.
Every year, it was us, band members practicing hard, trying to dedicate to our seniors the best performance as much as possible.
There'll be one song specially dedicating to the seniors, after the VIPs and parents have left the hall.
We'd practice real hard even though we know we'd still get cheers from the form five and upper six students cuz usually they wouldn't know even if we've played wrongly unless it's too obvious or it's our own members.

Now, it's my turn to sit with the graduands and watch the band perform.
Look at how time has flew.

I probably would cry tomorrow, or maybe not. I'm telling myself not to. x)
But one thing for sure is, all the moments we had would definitely play all again in my mind.
Especially when they play Warabe Uta Fantasy, the song that I've practiced the most this year, the song that we performed on Dewan Sri Pinang together for the first time.
The song that we played during the event that people have acknowledged ........ ;x  =)

You probably don't understand what I'm talking already, cuz I myself don't too. LOL

Anyhoo, goodie luck to us! We've to rock the stage tomorrow night.
Dance it all right for the very last time after all the nerve wrecking auditions. =)
I really do hope the make ups not gonna smudge if we happen to cry, I'm still betting with Mandy that I'm not gonna cry x)

I was at the seminar in CLHS for two days and I didn't learn the 谢师宴主题曲&插曲 -.-
Everyone's gonna sing it tomorrow and I don't even know how to =(
All I know is the funeral-like graduation song that I've heard for the past four years.

So, I'm just gonna do whatever I could to have more awesome memories. =)



The official video can't be embed, so this is it. -.-

Labels: Daily Life, Thoughts

Oh great, my Malay language teacher picked me to attend a seminar tomorrow.
At first I thought, cool, I don't have to attend Malay seminar outside then.
Then I got the bad news, it's a 2 day seminar program thingy.
6 and a half hours for each day. =(
And as if that's not the worst part, I got a worst than worst news. (If that's a word LOL)

I've to attend this freaking seminar at......
CLHS.
Yeah, that all guy school. I don't really like going there. -.-

And since the teacher said it's compulsory, I went to see the counsellor to get my permission slip thingy today.
Bad idea! Cuz I wasn't in school on Friday and IDK why, somehow the teacher has cancelled my name from the list.
I didn't know it and while the teacher was writing my name again into the list, she said 'actually if you didn't come, I would have give the place to someone else.' =__=

So fine, I'm going, since Lee May's going, I've someone to accompany me, and I'd accompany her.
Though I'm not sure if she'd start searching for her bf. x)

But now that I'm thinking bout it again, I'm so lazy to go.
I'd rather spend my time in school singing graduation songs times after times than attending a 6 hours seminar.
Thought of getting a MC but naah, mum wouldn't bring me for that.

So Imma just let it slide.

Seriously hope it's a useful two day seminar.
Imma stuck there for around 6 hours long and it better be worth it.
I'm lucky to get to attend this for free but unlucky too cuz I don't like going to other schools, and I don't like the Malay language. -.-
It's half lucky, half unlucky.

I hope the school would leave me some good impression, since the last few times I saw it was like.... heh heh. ;)

Til then. :D

Labels: Daily Life

Life's like the sea.
It's so wide, yet it seems kinda small.
It's so blue, yet it's black.
The sound of the shore brings relaxation, 
yet it could turn into billow, bringing intensification.


This moment, you're enjoying all the sea breeze and sunshine.
Next moment, you might get yourself into undercurrent, causing death.


Right now, you could see all you want, the fishes, jellyfishes, all the pretty sea creatures.
Next minute, all you could see is darkness, you seem like you're standing in a huge dark room, alone.


You could be swimming, being first in the line, in the sea.
Next you would be struggling, giving all your strength to survive.


Life's like the sea.
You may know where you're heading to right now, laughing off happily.
You would lost all your way in split seconds, dashed hopes are all you have.


If you happen to have a compass with you,
it's probably dead.
Now that's another challenge waiting up for you to beat it down.


Don't you agree?
Life's so awesome, you would love it so much but in split seconds, things would happen.
You'd hate life so much then, see, that's why people nowadyas commit suicides so easily.

Well, no worries, I'm not gonna commit suicide.
This is NOT a symptom of committing suicide like those psychologist said.
They say when one write stuffs about despairs of life, they're most likely gonna commit suicide. LOL

I just had random thoughts and I thought I'd like to write it up.
But y'know what?
I typed it all out in nicer words, nicer metaphor and it's lost in the draft box, and I don't remember much what I've typed.
It's just a sudden inspiration. For that, I shouted FML in my heart.
See, you don't see things coming sometimes. It's out of your expectation.

Anyway, life's full of challenge, even the billionaire has his own worries.
Even the happiest kid in the world has his own worries.

So, hitch it up, live your life (I'm not gonna say to the fullest. Having your life to the fullest may not be the best either, isn't it?) happily. =)

Ditch the unnecessary stuffs, seek for stuffs in need.
Expect the unexpected. ;)

Labels: Thoughts

I want a polaroid camera.
Preferably Fuji Instax Mini 50s. The piano-black series.
But since it's quite new, it's gonna cost me a lot.
And thanks to not having allowance all year round.
Not much, mum just gave me a lil' here and there and I've been spending my savings all this while for meals in school.

You'd definitely think how do I have savings when I don't have allowance, right?
Haha, thanks to my lovely grandmother. =)
But that's the reason too, cuz she gives me money, that's why mum doesn't give me allowance.
She probably worry I might have too much money. Heh.

But I'm not that kinda kid that would spend anytime I want, except I spend a lil' more this year compare to the past 10 years, since I get allowance. LOL

So, I'd really love it , love you, if you buy me a Fuji Instax mini 50s! x)
I'm just saying, but I really do hope someone will give me that as a gift? =p
If it's troublesome for you to go to a mall and get it, use The *Click* Shop, x)

I want it for my graduation night dinner, which is coming Saturday o_o
<3

This week will be one hectic week, I guess?
Monday has rehearsal once again, Tuesday and Wednesday are occupied with that six and a half hours thingy, should be having graduation ceremony rehearsal on Thursday and Friday too, I guess?
Saturday is our graduation day! Ceremony on the morning and dinner plus performances at night.
Sunday is occupied by driving lesson again. Shall be real tiring.

BTW, I pass my driving pre-test un-noticing-ly. LOL
I didnt even know that the test has started. Uncle seems worried at first. Hahaha.
I've confident to pass on my test day, unless I'm too nervous again. x)
Yes yes, I'm gonna get my license real soooooon. =)

Labels: Daily Life

It has been.. uhh, kinda bad. A few crappy weeks I had.
Trials were awful. Results are horrible.

The worst part? Since I was absent during English papers, I thought I wouldnt be calculated for the position in class and school,
but yes FML, just a couple of days ago I was told I will be in the list.
The worst worst part? I won't have TH (Tidak hadir) for my English result,
instead, I'll have a big ugly zero. First time ever. -_-

Anyway, maid went cuckoo everytime it's a full moon and the for last time, she insisted us to send her home.
And yes, we did.
So, I've been helping out mum a lil' here and there that my hands cracked, thanks to detergent.
So, yo, the new maid, you better come quickly and work properly.

Like five days ago? I sprained my freaking neck.
It got worst two days later. And now it has gone down to my shoulder.
Analgesic balm doesnt help =(
Sprained neck, stiff shoulders, I have no idea how am I gonna drive tomorrow.
And how to do the side parking stuffs etc etc? Forgotten. Thanks to trials.

And on Thursday night, I was shivering as if I'm under the air conditioner for hours but I wasn't.
Then, the loud banging on my door made me jumped off bed and I sensed something bad, without knowing it in details.
I prayed, I wished, I did whatever I could at that time.
I was so happy when nothing much happened.
When I got the details, my heart skipped a beat.

My heart, it stopped less than a second, and it beat again, pumping blood throughout the body, making sure I don't freak out or faint or whatever my body would have reacted.
I thanked god at that moment, so so much.
It was a miracle that happened. Totally miracle!

Tears of fear, eventually tears of grateful too.
Heart was still beating rapidly for the next few hours.
However, we settled down though it took quite some time.

So you guys out there, please appreciate your love ones 24/7, especially your family members.
No one beats your family member even if you fight everyday, doesnt talk to each other or don't even see them more than seeing your wall.

A new experience, a new kinda fear we all had.
But a miracle we had too. =)

Labels: Daily Life, Thoughts

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