原来他们那边也会有所谓的“内乱”的..
真想不到会有酱的事..
而且还会不爽到酱糟糕的地步..
幸好我们这里没有..
有的也没酱糟..
hehe..
近来，我发觉，只要感情好就会比较没事了..
真的，有事，只要感情够好，有什么不爽的，
好好讲，最多就那几秒，如果还不够，
最多那几小时尴尬那一下，
过了，只要那错的人肯去改，
就没事了。
或许不能一下子完全改到完，
但至少，我相信他们都肯改..
有些人，你好好告诉他们..
他们都肯改..
但有些人，怎样讲，
改改那几下，又变回原来的样子，
真伤脑经耶，
都不知道要怎样改他们..
有些人，感觉上，好像很有势力似的..
有时要讲他们，都怕啊..
我试过要讲一个人，
结果讲到一半舌头打结，
讲起话来又有点发抖..
那时还死要装没事，把那就话讲完。
吓死自己罢了..
从那次起，每要讲他，
脑里一定要想过要怎样讲，
怎样讲才比较不会伤人，
但又要讲了，那人肯听，
一定要想过很多遍才行耶。
有时想到最后，还是算了，
不要讲了。
连要讲那一两句话都有想到酱，
有时到最后，根本就不想讲去了。
原来，讲话也要有技巧的...
x_x

近来，我又发觉到..
原来我是那么的爱吃巧克力..
hehee..
chocolates..
yummy yummy...
连 breadspread 都是
chocolate and hazel nut 的..
家里肯定不缺少巧克力，
我爽的话，一天可以吃上好几片巧克力。
根本就不担心会发胖。
哪像有些人啊，
吃了后，拼命运动，减肥..
为的就是要除掉那几片巧克力会给的脂肪。
真不明白，怕肥就别吃啦！
我有发觉到，我买东西，
都希望不会跟别人有一样的东西。
像之前的那个书包，全校，全槟城就只有我一个人有那款式。
这次买的，全校就只有我那一个。
东西，同品牌，我无所谓。
只要看到有人跟我用同款式的话，
每去那地方我就不用那个。

最近，我越来越发现自己平时的事了。
总算，有关心自己的时候了吧。
hehehe..
我在班上，的确是静了些，
但同学们，别误会啦。
我不是自闭的啦。
我也没有搞 emo..
只是，我跟你们都不熟，
都不知道要怎样融入你们。
hehe..
只要你们看到我跟鼓队队员们在一起时，
你们就知道我不是自闭的啦。
=)

运动会那天快来了。
不知那天会有怎样的表现呢？！
紧张死了！！
but, 大家加油吧！
hehee..

刚刚收到乐灵的来电，
说明天要 stay back 到四点酱..
要帮忙缝东西耶..
糟啦！怎么是叫我缝呢？！
你们可要知道我缝东西很烂的耶...
不知明天我会缝出什么鬼东西来..
烂的话...
队员们，sorry yeah!!
别怪我哈！！
我会尽量缝好来的。

Labels: Band, Daily Life, Feelings/Comment, Friends

Today’s raptai..
Not bad what.
Haha..
But percussion, there’s more to learn.
There’s still so much space to improve..
Continue at this level, and go higher !!!
don’t drop down, okay?!
Today’s formation..
The style.. So yeng !!..
Heheee..
The sandwiches I ate in school this morning..
So gross..
A big plain white bread with a tiny square of ham
And a finger-width-long cheese..
Plus the bread is so dry.
So not fresh.
Yucks !!..
Then we ran to the field to get prepare.
Laurine’s quad sounded so cacat.
Even with mr lim’s help..
We cant tune it in time.
Sounded so minor key.
More like a minor + minor + major key..
=.=“’ haha..
Then straight away started the raptai..
Partly its because there’s not enough time to let
the disgusting bread to digest..
I have this very weird feeling and felt like vomiting
when I carried my drum.
So gross..
Cuz when we passed the grand stand,
I wanted to vomit out ad.
But it just couldn’t get out..
Like kinda stuck at pipes in the body..
I forced myself to push all the food back into
my stomach while marching through out all the parade.
I know, So disgusting, right?!!!
But luckily I didn’t faint or anything.
Just felt kinda tired while doing so many things at the same time.
Parade, playing songs, formation, and…
Pushing back the food to prevent vomiting.
x_x
But what a nice ending before school finish.
Hehee..
Chatted with shiling and laurine in the auditorium
for so long..
Hahaha..
Then went home.
So tired..
Plus, am having headache agains.
x_x
Why??
Under the sun for too long?
Hmm.. Guess not.
Cuz last time, under the hot sun for too long,
I don’t have any problems also.
Or is it that I am weaker nowadays,
Compared to the old days??
@_@
I feel that my stamina dropped ad.
Boo hoo..
I think I should run the field more.
Hmm...
XD

Labels: Band, Daily Life, Performance

tomorrow is the Raptai Day
for sports day.
i started to feel nervous since this afternoon..
especially after practice.
i just dont know why.
i always tell myself,
its just sports day performance what,
what for i'm so nervous about it.
but am so fake... lie to myself.
=.="'
cuz i take every performance seriously.
yes, honestly.
doesnt matter its a competition
or a small performance in school..
i'm just so stress nowadays.
almost all the signs of stress are on me.
x_x

am so down now.
marvin, dont leave us lah !!!
please..
purrhleaasse..
i dont want that two guys leh..
booo hoo..
T_T


p.s. tomorrow's raptai day!!
鼓队，加油！！！
我们能的，对吧？！
我们是能的！！
我们是可以的！！
percussion,
gambatteh, okay??
we can do it!!!

Labels: Band, Feelings/Comment

am so tired again.
@_@
attended 1st and 2nd class.
but 2nd class teacher didnt come in.
then i went to practice.
went back for last 3 classes.
copied homework, note down homework stuff.
then sleep at the last class cuz teacher didnt come.
then back from school.
i made eggs and ham sandwiches for my lunch.
hehee..
watched some tv shows.
i owe my art teacher, history teacher and chinese teacher homeworks.
loads of homework.
i'm just so lazy to do.
and i cant believe that idiotic prefect dimerit my marks again.
discipline teacher said my hair's okay.
but the prefect insists its too long
and dimerit me 4 marks.
damn.
how am i gonna explan it to my parents
if they ever send a mail to my parents.
i'm gonna be so dead...
merit marks, homework...
T_T

Labels: Band, Daily Life

TC !!
grrr..
make me felt so geram !!
whenever we say we wanna get new ones,
definitely she will say,
"then next time when you get married and 'keh lang' that time,
you dont want your husband already,
you get a new one argh?!"
* 'keh lang' means married to someone in hokkien. *
so geram nia.
always use 'husband' this kinda things/"principal" ...
i always wanna tell her back that
our instruments are objects.
our future husbands are human.
not objects, not instruments,
but living things!
they're living things!
they have feeling.
while instruments isn't alive.
it doesnt have feelings.
we might have feelings to the instruments,
cuz we love it.
but the instruments is still non-living thing!

but i always keep it in my heart
whenever she tells me the "husband principal" thingy,
i'll just fake and smile.
i just doesnt wanna find troubles with her
as she is not nice to meddle with.

but...!! kek si me only..
where to find someone to repair them in...
like, 1 and a half day huh?!?
said til so nice..
like its so easy.
some more say if not,
my junior dont have to go..
=.="'
i'm just so damn geram..

Labels: Band, Feelings/Comment

was viewing a couple of friends' blogs.
a friends posted stuff about horoscopes.
here's mine..
巨蟹座最怕失去的东西：家庭
巨蟹座是个善良，有同情心的星座，虽然他们很会关心别人，　　　
同时他们也有一种依赖的心理，害怕孤单一人，最需要的就是家庭的温暖。
巨蟹座
　　沈醉在自己所编织的理想中时。
　　对于他人的求助帮其解决困难时。
　　周围的人都充满了人情味时。
i'm a Cancerian,
and it's kinda true though.
hehehe..
btw, i used always go check out gary's website once in a while.
to see whether can get to view the formation not.
i didnt go to view his web for quite some time ad..
and just now, i saw a friend posting blogs about his web
and the formation.
i was like, oh?! it's out already?!
and i went and viewed it.
same like them,
my mouth were kinda, well, quite, actually,
quite widely open too when i saw jit sin formation.
eyes were so big.
hehe..
both our school formation are,
um.. honestly,
hard!!
XD
hehehee..
u guys can view it at
http://www.cooldrill.com

PCGHS, gambatteh!!
=D

Labels: Band, Daily Life, Notice/Announcement

Nowadays, bad weather.
People, do take care of your own health yeah.
Drink more water!
=)
Lol.
I miss laurine!!
Hehee
She’s not back from hong kong yet.
=(

4th april, am looking forward to it.
XD
I got darker
But I didn’t realize it until my tuition teacher asked me,
“ why are you so dark? “
And I was like,
“huh?! I’m so dark meh?! “
Hehee..
Well, its because I’m too busy til I didn’t have the time
to look at myself properly in the mirror.
XD
Tomorrow back to school again.
=(
Giving me so much pressure!
I hate having pressure!
don’t give me pressure and don’t make me feel stress, please!
Pleeeasseeee, I beg you all !!
I already have so much pressure from my relatives and parents.
And I’m already stress so much about band and studies!
The times that I only fell happy in school is,
get to talk to friends, go to practices.
Although sometimes, practices are quite stressing too,
But still I love practicing with friends!
My bass juniors, you all don’t treat me as leader anymore
when its not practice time.
Weeee~
=)
I love you all, all my friends!
Friendship loves, of course!
Hehe..
=)

Labels: Daily Life, Feelings/Comment, Friends

Last night was the first night that I slept
the earliest since last year’s year end holiday til now.
Hehee..
Usually I will sleep at 11 something.
11 the earliest.
But last night, I said I wanna sleep at 9.30pm.
But guess what?!
8.30pm, I was told to shut down the computer.
Got into room, brushed my teeth, washed my face and
I was starting to feel more and more tired.
I can hardly open my eyes.
So I decided to get into bed.
When I set my phone alarm,
It was 8.45pm.
I fell asleep straight away.
Suddenly, my phone rang.
That was 9pm.
At that moment,
I was like, huh?! So fast morning ad?
Aiyooo~
Then I wanna turn off my alarm,
I didn’t see a bell sign.
Instead, it was an incoming call.
I was so sleepy that I was so lazy to answer it.
But no choice, it was Ah Lim.
Finish talking, back to sleep.
5 minutes later,
My house’s maid knocked my room’s door.
Picking up laundries.
Opened the door for her, then back to sleep.
9.45pm, my mum knocked my door.
Asked me to take care of my sis.
She’s going out to fetch my bro back from tuition.
=.=‘’’
So I grabbed my booster to sis room,
She was doing homework,
And I just slept on her bed.
XD
Til 10 something,
When my parents came back,
I got back into my bed and straight away sleep til this morning 9am.
=)
Long time didn’t slept for so many hours ad.
Hehe..

Labels: Daily Life

freaking tiring!!
back to school again.
both yesterday and today,
wanna study in class also cant stand it.
sure fall asleep.
i know, its a bad thing to do in class.
but cant stand it anymore. =.="'

yesterday, after school,
have some stuff to do,
so i stayed back.
went car and told my mum to bring my neighbour back home 1st.
she said she wanna go town to do some stuff,
so only will come fetch me at 4.30.
if earlier, call me through PA system.
and i was like, yeaaah whatever, okay.
cuz i didnt wanna follow her to go down to town.
have to stay in car for so long.
so i prefered to stay back at school.
went music room to settle things with laurine n jesmine.
then chit chat.
hehe..
laurine went back around 2pm.
me n jes continued to chat til 4.15.
=D
the feeling was like so great.
i didnt chat with some one for so long,
for quite some time ad.
like, since school reopens til now?!
x_x
lol.
chatted about past time, future
and of course, present.
haha.
i went back at 4.30.
jes went and find TC.
she broke her mace.
lol.
tc called her as 'hercules'
=.="'
i thought hercules is a MAN?!
kinda like a barbarian man who fights?!
hmm..

today, we were waiting for a junior to come to practice.
looked for her every where
but didnt get to find her.
me, shiling and laurine went to the asst. principal office
to ask the principal to use the PA System to announce to look for her.
at first, we went in for 3 times and didnt dare to ask.
lol.
the last time me n shiling went in,
i told laurine dont allow us to go back if we didnt make our announcement.
after we told Pn Chan,
we pretend that we didnt tell yet
and the other percussionists was like,
hah?! why??
we pretend n say,
when u see pn chan's face, u dare to ask her to do things for u argh?!
hehee..
she didnt come.
guess what?!
she was sleeping behind the boards that were a few steps away from us only!
and we went all around the school compound to look for her
=.='''

anyway,
tomorrow saringan ad!!
nervous, nervous!!
very very nervous!
hehee..

you!! yes, you!!
hehe.
dont bluff us anymore!!
you wanna bluff me for the last whole week,
okay, i let you tell whatever lies you want.
i dont care at first.
that one week, you wanna fake and tell lies.
i let you be.
you fake and act, i also fake and pretend with you lo.
let you thought i believe you that you're really sick.
and whatever lies you told,
i just fake and pretend to believe.
you think i dont know?!
all those things you fake,
me, laurine and jes went through before.
we know what you told is true or false.
stop bluffing us yeah.
i dont care,
this week, no more!!
you wanna come and fake and act in front of us?!?!
come and fake and act.
i dont care.
whatever is going on that moment,
you must continue.
i'm not gonna let you to continue to fake and tell lies.

i'm so freaking regret!!
last few days,
i have the feeling that i'm an unsuccesful leader.
but, i still have laurine to help and support me.
today, you made me felt that i'm a very very unsuccesful leader.
i failed?! i'm a failure?!
i dont think i am, but no matter how i taught you all,
still the same results, same problem.
why? or is it so true that i failed?

multiple bass drummers,
tomorrow's saringan day!!
gambatteh!!!
we can do it!!

Labels: Band, Daily Life, Feelings/Comment, Friends

went training camp again
lol
i broke my bass' drum head (the skin).
=) and T_T
kinda happy cuz finally, i broke it.
cuz last time, i told my senior i'll broke one.
i know i know. waste money. =.="'
but i was joking at that time, last year actually.
i didnt want anything to be broken now
cuz we needa save money now.
but so unlucky!
next week's saringan..
for the school annual sports day.
aiyaiyai..
me and laurine realize that every time
before any performance or competition,
especially for outdoor's...
definitely at least a drum's skin or the sticks will broke.
weird, huh?!
so mafan leh..
have to stick the alphabets one by one on the new skin.
x_x hehee..
anyway,
here's a pic of my broken bass' skin.
XD

Labels: Band, Training Camp

我好像是错了
感觉我当初的决定又再是错的
为什么我又再酱冲动
这几天，心里一直觉得有点后悔
怎么办？？
为什么不犹豫，勇敢的做决定时
后来，发现是错的
为什么就没有一次的决定是不后悔的？？
我很糟耶
只要是我一个人做的决定
没有与朋友谈过的
没有听过别人的意见
常常就做出错的决定
为什么，没有一次是对的？
一次，一次就好。
我的人生就有酱悲惨吗？
不管在哪里，做什么，最后一定是错的
一定会有后悔的感觉。
为什么就不能让我有一次可以完完全全没有后悔的感觉。
那种感觉，每次就只持续在那短短的时间内
难道我一辈子就要一直后悔吗？？

Labels: Feelings/Comment

Went school for training camp today again.
Today, the attendance for percussion…..
T_T
cymbalist, bell player..
one sick, one having parents problem.
Where’s my multi juniors?!
Only one came.
Whole practice, only two multi.
(multiple bass drummers)
made my arms' muscle teared.
the whole left arm was like cacat-ed
kept on putting relieves muscle aches cream.
x_x
when we were practicing the formation.
we have to do the style,
we have to lean forward and downwards..
i went as low as the others were and...
'boom!' 'argh..!'
my bass drum dropped down
knocked my knees and i fell.
=.="' so lame lah me.
then everybody still continues the formation
except laurine n jes.
lol. end up laughing!
hehehee..
during rest time, have to stay and teach the new juniors.
then went marching..
after that when each section practice on their own.
then only the 3 of us starts to eat.
hehee.. XD
so much laughter during that 10 to 15 minutes.
=D
after that, combined with the whole band.
played bass, xylophone and bells.
what a nice song!! =D
when practice finishes,
I'm so.. hmm.. special.
lol.
have to clean and keep 3 instruments.
some more have to check the cleanliness
of every percussion instruments.
when keeping the drum set,
i'm so careless!!
knocked down the snare drum.
and RM5 gone. =(
luckily i have good memory today,
i remembered to wear name tag today,
or else it would be RM6.
hehee..

Labels: Band, Daily Life, Training Camp