Staring out the window and many things came to my mind.
And here I am starting to blog again, still by the window, listening to the rain drops.
Playing one of my Golden Memories discs collection, listening to Rain Drops Keep Falling On My Head.
Letting the rain to splash in, wetting my legs.
I received a message and ugh, you wouldnt wanna be me if you know how my actual life is.
Though no one knows how my real life is, I suppose.
What everyone have seen are basically just the surface. Wants to see my real life?
Not even a chance as I'm hiding it. Hiding it real good til even my mum doesnt see it either.
You might think that I'm so fake but, up to you. You wouldnt wanna know the real ones.
I mean, c'mon, it isnt fake either, you're just seeing the surface only, it's still facts.
What would you do? If you're doing the same thing every single day.
Waking up in the morning, feeling so dead on the bed, you would just wish to sleep back and not getting up at all. Might as well sleep in 24 hours everyday.
But yeah, you cant, you've to get up before your mum starts going around babbling on you. Or your little sisters come banging on the door.
Or there's something important waiting for you to do. Being a sleepyhead, you still have to get up replying all the texts you've receive during the night or early morning.
Even a simple morning wishes would cheer me up. And go bath. Even with your eyes close. Pfft.
Let's say it's a school day, then you'd start getting ready to school. Getting into the the car so reluctantly, to school.
All you gotta do is, open your mind and ears, stuff all the knowledge in, learn more and more each day. Then end of school, you feel so exhausted, but still put on a smile, say goodbyes to your classmates and friends.
When you see your mum, you still have to put on a big smile and pretends that school was fun.
Gets ready and go to tuition, staring at the teacher when your brain is already sleeping, and listen to the sick jokes the teacher pulls off. You still have to fake a laugh, or at least put on a smile.
Get back to home and it's already 10.30pm. You still have like a stack of homework to do, big bunch of assignments. And you still have to study. Pfft.
When you finish everything, it's already was past midnight.
That's not fun, right?
Okay, how about it's a holiday? It should be fun, right?
Well, we'll see. You can sleep in as long as you like but not until 11 o'clock either. Getting up, and start getting yourself brunch.
On the laptop and you'd go online whole day long cuz you have nothing better to do to keep all the stress away.
Or you'd go playing the piano, but you get so freak up every time you plays the wrong chord whenever it comes to that freaking bar and start switching off everything.
Or let's say you'd play on the drums, but you're so stress out that you're so lazy to get the hands to coordinate with the legs, and it sounds so freaking messy and bad, then you'd start switching off everything again.
Then, grab the DSLR and go shoot some photos but you're stuck in your own house, you get bored out after shooting the same objects again and again. Leave the camera aside and start switching on the TV but nothing nice to watch.
Back to your lappy and on that PPS, but the stupid line made it to load so slow. You're so frustrated already and you'd grab a book and start reading.
Then, the story is so weird that you just throw the book aside.
Continuing on all the plannings you've to do, whatever stuffs you've to do but you dont wanna do.
After all, you have nothing better to do, so, on the Facebook and MSN and chatting around with a bunch of people on meaningless topic, reading up randomly on net til it's time for bed.
Okay, so that's not fun, right? Ha ha ha.
I'd like to change my life, but I suppose it will be the same for at least a year more.
Let me finish my SPM and I wanna get my ass off here and start exploring other places.
But y'know what, I still cant, I have to go study again, to be graduated from university or at least get a bachelor to please my dad. And I hate when people says you can just buy it. WTH.
Is it just me or everyone? To have such boring life.
Okay, so here's a question for all of you.
How do you break free from all this sickening daily routine?
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